bad luck

hiaz.. so so so headache.. suddenly dunno how to do maths.. geometry assignment.. speedtime graph also suddenly forgot how to do....=( todae dunno why like not in so good mood sia.. this morning saw handphone bill on the sofa.. open see the amount.. wa lao.. so expensive!!!.. anyway, i've guessed it la..tt it will exceed the limit.. but didn't expect so ex lorx.. $80 lehx.. have to pay myself.. sianz lorx.. haiz.. actually thought veri happy.. this month can save quite a lot de..put aside $40 for my bill still left ard $60.. but who knows the bill double the actual amount.. so have to take away $40 from savings.. left $20 to save..=(

then morning while walking down to take bus.. saw the bus come liao.. den run.. but in front of the bus door.. dig for my ez-link cut but dun have! so quickly walk away.. so pai seh.. haiz.. forgot to take ez-link card.. den call mama ask her bring down for me..

Then todae's lessons ar.. almost all need to do work.. tt kind need to write long essays de.. so tiring la.. but if never do work will fall asleep.. must eat sweet or something den can be awake.. then tml still got eng tests.. 2 eng tests i think.. if i'm not wrong.. dunno wad international de thingy ar.. sure do till head big big one..

Dunno why lorx.. todae.. veri sad.. veri irritated and annoyed.. miss him so so so much.. haiz..juz cannot stop thinking of him even if i try to.. haiz.. tml maybe going church.. qian ting at first say wan to go.. but now she say dun feel like going.. den dunno lo.. i also dun wan go alone de ma..

next week is teachers day liao.. this yr nv buy anything at all for any teachers.. wan to save money.. haha.. haben arrange with pri sch friends to go back pri sch also.. think will go out with miss tang ba.. every year also like tt.. think she become more n more fierce le worx.. but she veri good to us when she thought us in the year 2000.. i have seniors in junyuan also thought by her.. they hate her like hell.. haha.. cuz she always throw things like chalk and duster de.. but she treat us the best lo.. she also say she dunno why.. haha.. got one time.. our class didn't do well for our mathematics test.. den she so disappointed and go to teachers room and cry.. then the whole class also.. realise our mistakes.. den whole class cry also.. den 2 by 2 go to the teachers room and apologise to her.. haha.. our class veri united one.. teachers dae also celebrate.. party in the class.. and is so well organised.. each bring something.. decorate classroom.. even can ran out sch to coffee shop but food... den play games.. got forfeit.. so fun la.. not like now.. so sianx one..

sad...

hmmm.. todae.. receive poa test.. full marks! didn't expect.. haha.. hmm... chinese lesson sian.. everyone like no mood to continue lesson le.. den chat chat.. haha.. veri funny... every MT lesson fiona and mi sure will sae tt we r hungry one.. den tok tok bout food.. haha.. every lesson like tt.. so funny.. everydae ard 9pm sure will hungry de.. haha.. still need to wait till 10.45 den reccess.. haiz.. so sian.. todae's essembly quite funny lor.. think this is the onli assembly almost eveyone pay attention to.. haha.. it's about different masks(faces)..can reflect on how we feel.. and ppl often put on diff masks on diff ocassions..
after assembly liao den go home.. juz reach home onli.. realise that a call from polyclinic juz called and sae grandma have to go for checkup immediately.. if emergency den muz go hospital.. haiz..=( den father mother not at home.. bro n sis drive her go.. den in the end still have to stay in hospital..=(.. haiz..

Tues

heyhei... haha.. todae hor.. hmmm.. got PE.. hehe.. den dun have frisbee( dunno how to spell) lesson liao.. can do when ever we want.. haha.. some play captain ball.. some play frisbee.. and some.. sat down chatting.. and some play childhood games.. lolx.. i'm one of them.. haha .. nothing to do ma.. actually other PE lessons taught by mr tan also veri relax one.. dun wear pe shirt also can.. haha..hmmm... xiang ni, joan,su man, shi ying,wei kei,nurul,qian ting, azimah and me actually played the wolf game.. the game all of us played when we were young.. asking the wolf wad time issit and and have to walk how mani steps towards the wolf.. and when the wolf sae it's dinner time!, we have to run back to our home.. and not get caught by the wolf.. haha.. sounds kinda stupid.. but i think we all enjoyed it la.. even teacher join us in the game.. haha.. den later we played lao ying zhuo xiao ji.. haha.. wen long n pinwen joined.. kinda tiring eh.. haha.. i know it's veri childish.. but who cares.. i think it's gonna be our last PE lesson.. veri tiring.. after that.. chem lesson.. actually interested in tt topic.. bout alkanes,alkenes,alcohol,carboxylic acids all that.. and todae... i forgot wad i have learnt! OMG.. know why? cuz i veri tired... after PE and after reccess ma.. everyone tired.. geo lesson half asleep le.. hehe.. after sch still got maths remedial.. but ok la.. at least awake le.. den given prac paper to do.. not bad... can do most questions.. and quite fast.. haha.. sian.. den finally .. go home time! haiz.. tt stupid bro.. bring my modem over to his laptop nv bring back.. i knew it.. yesterdae come back home onli buai song.. still sae wan to take dunno wad thing from my new com.. heard from mama tt he big quarrel with sis yesterdae morning.. stupid idiot la him.. my money for the com lor.. he sae wan to take den take ar? go n die manx.. lock his room door.. tell him properly i wan go in take something dun wan to open door.. ask my mother go ask him open.. den he buai song.. after i take my thing liao still scold mi san ba... idiot la.. wad i did man.. didn't even tok to him a single word yesterdae lor.. everytime use internet onli wan to lock door.. dunno wad he doing man.. now he make my elder sis so angry liao.. now is like.. me and my 2 sisters hate him to the core man.. wan to be a man also dunno how to be.. so sissy also.. YUCKS!

i feel hurt~

These few days, i felt that 'H' has been ignoring me and there's a barrier between us. Is there some misunderstanding? Well, todae during recess, i decided to ask 'H''s friend, 'Y' whom i think she knew something. 'Y' said that she was not sure but if it was wad she was thinking.. so i ask her to sae out her thoughts. She said 'H' told her that i am a bit 'wad'. 'H' said that i have the money and yet i ask 'L' to buy that b'dae present for me. tt's why she felt that i am veri de 'wad'. I felt so hurt when i heard that. In the first place, did i ask for that present? the answer is 'NO!' 'L' and i were just having a casual chat somedae and ,true, i mentioned that i like tt wallet and ask her to buy for me, but of cuz, i was juz joking! 'L' knew that i was joking.. i was in a joking manner ok.. and i knew tt it's impossible for her to buy the wallet.. as it's rather expensive. But who knows after some days, 'L' told me that she is buying that for mi and sharing with some other friends.but after some daes i told her that it's ok ans asked her not to buy, but she insisted. Then veri pai seh wad.. so i said i pay part of it. Until now the wallet is not yet bought la. 'L' kept asking me which day am i free to go and buy the wallet together, but i told her i was not in a hurry to want that wallet and told her perhaps after O lvls.

But to think that my close frien, 'H', thinks that i'm behaving in a veri 'wad' way,asking present from friend, my heart really sank. Do u think that i that sort of person? I NEVER ASK FOR IT OKAY! I realli feel so hurt when 'Y' told mi that, and tears forming. Imagine a friend whom u thought really cares about you thinks and say you in such a way? OMG! Althought this is juz wad 'Y' thought, it is already a fact that she thinks me like this.'H' thinks that i'm rich, but that's onli wad she thinks. It's not the fact. She don't know about my family problems. After all this, i told 'L' that she really don't need to buy the present. Of cuz, she can feel something wrong from my expression, and asked me wad happened and why. But i kept quiet.

I found out that 'H' maybe ignoring meis becuz she found that there is suddenly no topic to talk between us. 'A' told me that it was maybe that i stopped going home with 'H' and keep going to school and going home with 'M', that bring this barrier between us. If that's the case, i can stop going to sch n going home with 'M' animore. i just hope that 'H' will understand and may out friendship be healed in no time.

Todae POA new topic again. Quite easy la. 2 periods of Literatur,Ms quek's lesson.. everytime can talk full 2 periods without touching Literature de... she said our class got a ger pissed the examiner off by talking non-stop for half an hour worx! and tt whole group will be penalised. that ger must be crazy and guess who is she? is shi yu!

O lvl MT resultz n O lvl Eng oral~

todae ar.. as usual lor.. although know tt MT o lvl results coming out but also.. not looking forward to it.. not tense la.. sure will know the results de ma.. haiz.. not so good..B3.. maybe a few more marks onli can get A2 le..=( haiz.. nvm.. nxt try must score at least an A! haha... sian lorx.. must attend lessons... nvm... todae got eng o lvl oral somemore.. so sway.. both examiners old de.. and got no sense of humour like tt.. dunno how to laugh or even smile de.. =( and by my turn already 4+ to 5 le... can see the examiner yawn..haiz.. sway.. my class the pther grp so good.. got young and active examiners... see them laughing n smiling all the time... haiz... nvm.. i will score well de..! haha.

HaPpY bIrThDaE sInGaPoRe!

yoz.. todae is Singapore's birthday..hapy birthdae, Singapore! hmmm.. woke up at 10:30 todae.. quite late hor.. hee.. den watch tv.. do homework and study.. got maths tys homework.. but cannot do.. cuz forgot to bring home the book..=X hee.. watched the NDP on TV.. dunno y.. feel a bit excited.. cuz my sch choir performing.. hee.. onli managed to see shawn, victor and rebecca.. haiz.. dunno y.. todae got headache again.. and Todae got Singapore Idol worx.. watched abit.. den switched to channel i.. saw this show veri funny.. haha.. forgot wad's the show;s name liao.. quite bored todae.. tml can study whole dae again lorz.. dunno why todae nothing i also feel like blogging.. haha.. maybe juz feel like using the com ba... The daes of not having my com is too diff for me! haha.. have to use bro's laptop.. sianz.. nvm.. this sat can go buy ler..

WaD a SwAy DaE!

WhaT tHe F***! ok.. i dun wish to scold tt one..but i'm realli veri angry k.. Later suppose to go buy new com one.. Yong min and his bro helping me..He persuaded his bro veri long liao den can get him to help one..buy the things total cost below $1600..with LCD screen la.. Then told sister yesterdae liao..still sae can lend her Nets to me..Then this morning ask this ask that..like not happy like tt..KAO PEI!NAG AND NAG.. I THOUGHT SHE ALREADY AGREED.. LIKE DUN TRUST MY FRIEND.. ARGUED THE WHOLE MORNING.. TEARS FLOWING THE WHOLE MORNING..BRO FOR NOTHING ALOS WAN TO SCOLD N SHPUT AT ME.. DUNNO ANITHING ALSO WAN TO INTERRUPT.. WAN TO SLAP ME.. GO N DIE LA..! DAMN HIM! WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH HIM!IDIOT! WA LAU!KAO!NOW SIS SCREAM LIKE MAD.. OH NO! WHOLE FAMILY GO CRAZY.. SHE THOUGHT I BLAME HER.. SCAREAM LIKE CRAZY..DEN I TELL HER "I DUN BLAME HER!" DEN BRO COME SHOUT AT ME AGAIN.. IT'S NONE OF HIS BUSINESS OK.. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG MAN..SAE I MAKE TILL THE WHOLE FAMILY NOT HAPPY???!!! fINE!! I GO DIE LA! DEN WHOLE FAMILY VERI HAPPY LIAO! ANYWAY,HAVE I DONE ANITHING WRONG?I JUZ WAN TO BUY A COMPUTER.. AND I HAD THEIR PERMISSION OK... UNTIL THE DAE WHEN WAN TO GO N BUY DEN SISTER DUNNO Y.. CRAZY.. OBJECT.. ALREADY PLAN EVERYTHING LIAO WANNA MEET MY FRIEND LE.. DEN SHE COME SAE THESE THINGS.. SINCE SHE DUN TRUST MY FRIEND RITE, WAN TO ASK HER BF BUY N DO RITE, FINE LOR.. SHE CALLED HER BF LIAO WAD.. SAE NXT WEEK FREE WAN TO COME N DO MA.. DEN NOW DUNNO Y GO CRAZY.. CRY N SCREAM LIKE MAD.. SAE DUN ASK HIM DO LER.. IDIOTIC! SHE MAKE ME FEEL SO PAI SEH.. ITS LIKE TROUBLED MY FRIEND LIAO.. WAN ME NOT TO ASK MY FRIEND DO LE.. OK LO.. DEN NOW SHE DUN WAN HELP MI AGAIN.. WTF HER! DEN WAN MI ASK BACK MY FRIEND AR.. MUST BE CRAZY.. IT'S LIKE .. TROUBLED PPL SO MUCH LIAO STILL DARE TO GO BACK AND ASK FOR HELP AGAIN MEH.. SHE THINK I WUN FEEL PAI SEH ONE IZZIT.. NOW TT I ASKED FRIEND NOT TO DO LER.. SHE ALSO ASK HER BF NOT TO BUY..DEN WAD?! STUPID IDIOT!I'M SO DAMN ANGRY AND SAD NOW!!! I NEED HIM..! I NEED HIM! BUT JUZ DUN DARE TO CALL HIM OUT..I CAN TOK TO NOBODY!NOT EVEN MY PARENTS!THEY CAN ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPEN.. EVEN THOUGHT ALMOST ALL THEIR CHILDREN ARE ACTING LIKE CRAZY NOW.. SAD!SAD!SAD!

I STAYED UP LATE YESTERDAE TO COMPLETE ALL MY HOMEWORK JUZ TO THINK THAT I GOT TIME TODAE TO GO OUT FOR A WHILE TO BUY THE THINGS NEEDED AND LATER COME HOME CAN STUDY.. BUT WHO KNOWS ENEDED UP LIKE THIS! IT CAN BE WHOEVER'S FAULT. I WANT TO BUY LCD SCREEN,SIS ALSO KPKB.. SOMEMORE I AM THE ONE PAYING, NOT HER! PARENTS ALSO DIDN'T SAE ANITHING,WHY SHE WANS TO CARE SO MUCH? iNFECT, MY DAD ENCOURAGE ME TO BUY A BETTER ABILITY COM. mONEY IS NOT THE PROBLEM LA.. AS LONG AS CAN BUY A GOOD AND LONG LASTING ONE..AND MY DAD HAS NO OBJECTIONO OK.. nOW I DUNNO WAD IS THE PROBLEM WITH MY SIS!"BLAMING HERSELF" SHE SAYS:"YA! IT'S MY FAULT!WHY MUST I CARE SO MUCH?WHY MUST I ACT AS IF I'M BOTH THE PARENTS?" BUT FROM HER TONE,OF CUZ SHE IS STILL BLAMING MI LA.. THINK I DUNNO AR.. NOW, SHE IS STOPPING HER BF FROM HELPING MI AS WELL! HOW NOW? I'M SO LOST OK..AS I'M TYPING, I'M CRYING..MY MOHTER LOOK AT ME ALSO DUNNO WAD TO SAE..I CAN SEE LA.. SHE'S WORRIED.. DUNNO WHY I CRY TILL SO CHAM.. DUNNO WAD I'M TYPE.. HALF TYPE HALF CRY..MUM SAE WAN CALL SIS BF.. ASK HIM HELP MI.. BUT I SAE DUN WAN..CUZ WITHOUT MY SIS PERMISSION..DUN THINK TT TT WILL BE NICE RITE.. LATER SHE ANGRY..HAIZ.. SO SAD! SO SAD NOW! JUZ FEEL LIKE BORROWING SOMEONE'S SHOULDER AND CRY.. AND CRY..AND CRY..!:'(

Still, I feeL tHaT BeIng WiTh AnYbOdy ElSe Is NO MORE HAPPIER than spending time with my choir mates. The bad times we had together is also considered HAPPY MOMENTS.. choir mates, if u all realised tt..=)

sadz

helox.. todae is the 7th of aug,, my cousin's 21st b'dae ler.. hmmm.. sad.. com spoil liao,,, now using bro's laptop,, u think i wan to use ar,, force to! he also dun let me use one... now he's out,, haiya,, nvm,,, wanna buy new laptop or destop,, dun care,, sis crazy,, so hot tempered,, i sae wan to buy laptop,, den she sae desktop better,, den keep toking toking.. i nv sae anithing,, tok tok till as if like scolding me like tt,, wa lao... siao one,, den sae till like my fault,, den quarrel lor,, make mi cry,, sian.. so todae's homework need ask yongmin help mi do,, bro dun let use,, haiz,, selfish! i buy le also dun let him use! idiot idot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Long time nv use com le.. and haben blog for mani daes,, yesterdae sch got funfair,,, the concert,, i think this year is the best performance ba.. didn't expect victor to be performing alone.. doing those funny actions,.. haha,, if i know i join him hahha,, denn ..den the choir ... a bit disappointed la.. the NDP ppl,,, no smaile on their face one,, like all dead,, must go back and sae them liao... funfair sian,, no nice games to play,, no nice food to eat,, anihow spend the $4 lorx,, den walk around,, some seniors came back.. saw ho wai,, look a bit like freddie lehx,, hmm ,, den peiming,geraldine,wee koon, cheryl eng keong.. ya yi(lychee）anna(banana)=p.. minli , ke hui.. and,, him,,,,,,,,,, haiz,,, he is soooooooooo.... ..... ............... argh,,,, sadx........:'( den at night went out with shi ting walk walk at tm.. she pass mi present,, got her firends there,, haiz,, sian,, sad yesterdae,, so .. like nv tok to them lor... no mood,,, hai! got a lot h/w to do...later small sis wan buy slipper for mi,, den i go buy stacey's and clarrissa's present.. den come back den do homework lor.....

16th b'dae

HeYo.. yesterdae is my 16th b'dae.. can waych NC16..=X haha.. hmmm.. collected a number of presents ar.. haha... got earphone given by dunno yongmin n yanling n who.. den a bear bear and a bottle by li hin my junior.. den a soft toy n some chocolates given by azimah.. a treat to yoshinoya by hong jing.. and treat to mac by victor... and still have worx.. wallet by liujing,yue zhu,april n dunno who..and t-shirt from pure milk by mama n the .. izzit slurp..shirt by papa.. haben buy yet.. hahahaha.. den met him at mac.. smoking again..-.-" haiz..
actually nothing much.. so boring.. haiz.. o ya.. tt dae saw my pri sch friend, sophian.. ahha.. he's as cute as ever.. hee.. maybe todae going out with kim choo they all.. maybe onli ar..

Now in sch using com to blog.. hse com dunno wad happen again.. on also cannot on.. even if can.. use a while den hang hang hang.. sianx.. hmmm.. tt jia yi biao mei keep saying mi nv ask her go eat sakae sushi.. den i busy also ma.. den i ask her this fri go den she not free..>_< haha.. den i feel like buy the tamagochi.. new one.. sounds fun la.. can make friends through infrared.. can be bf & gf.. can mate n give birth de.. haha.. but costs $29.90 lehx.. no money la.. dunno wan to buy or not..now su man and azimah also feel like buying .. haha.. and more n more ppl playing liao..

choked by fishbone..>++++|>

haiyoya.. yesterdae morning eat ota onli will choked by fishbone... so sway manx..xia si wo.. go to the sink.. wish tt it will come out.. but i dunno how to make.. haha.. even force myself to vomit.. but the stupid fishbone still dun wan to come out.. so bo bian.. tried all sorts of method la.. but nv work.. wan to drink vinegar but no vinegar.. eat all sorts of things.. wishing tt it will go down.. but nv.. parents ask me to go hospital.. but i dun wan .. they sae till so scary like tt leh..haiz.. den of cuz get better la.. sometimes pain sometimes not.. but the pain still can ren a bit la.. den todae morning wake up thought wun liao.. but.. until.. when i eat dinner can feel the bone again.. stinging my throat.. ouch.. den decided to go down see doc.. but i wan to try drink vinegar.. cuz ppl always sae vinegar always veri effective one... den my hse no vinegar ma.. so went down to grandma hse.. got vinegar.. den drank 1 teaspoon.. den later like ok liao.. den nv go see doc le.. i think so ok onli la.. dun go n think bout it can liao.. but from yesterdae till now.. my throat something like sore throat like tt liao..

todae ar.. go sch as usual lor.. rain in the morning.. ask my dad drive mi to sch.. haha.. den.. thought after sch we got no eng test.. cuz mrs daniel last week sae this week no eng test ma.. den we planned to go yongmin hse straight after sch.. but who knows during last period.. mrs danial sae there's eng test..=( sae is good news somemore.. haiz.. paper2 .. hmm.. quite ok la.. den after tt den go yongmin hse.. by the time already 4+ liao.. did a bit thing onli lar.. den reach home already 7.30 like tt liao.. eat.. half way feel pain in throat lor.. go grandma hse n wadever .. come back.. 8+.. finish eating at 10.. den on the com.. thinking of writing blog.. but on the com also takes me 50 mins to on.. sianx sia..-.-" lao ya den dian nao.. dunno now the fishbone still stuck or not.. hope not... den tml got maths common test.. after tt go swensen eat... victor's treat for bdae .. haha.. haiz .. now already 11+ le.. so tired.. *yawn*.. came online juz to blog.. i everytime like tt.. haha.. but onli on the com onli takes mi 1hr..-.-"