Tragedy

Perhaps it's my fault that i didn't bring across the msg properly.
I know, u said i nv consider your feelings when i said it.
But it's not like i nv tell u before and u once promised me you will do it but u did not.
I'm only bringing it up once again, the same issue.
If u said i nv consider your feelings, den have u considered mine?
Sigh.

I thought it would be best if i could talk things to you rather than my best friends or this blog.
But it seems like it is not that situation anymore.
I have come back here.
I discussed the matter with YL today.
She too, agreed with me.
I guess most ppl will agree with me.
But since you stick to your stand, then i also got nth else to say.

I regret telling u again abt this matter.
Becuz i thought it was just another casual talk that we are going to have
and it's not like we nv talked abt it before.
I really didn't expect such big reaction of you.
That it makes situation different now.
I hated myself now for saying it.
although i still think it was nth serious. (becuz i didnt mean that i Xian Qi you being like this)
becuz if i noe it's gonna be like this, i wld rather not mention.
But well, what said is said.
Knowing that it actually hurts u so deeply hurts me alot as well.
i am sorry to hurt you.

又是食物！

上个星期六，方课过后去 PlazaSing 见宝贝。。
应为他要吃 Manhatten Fish Market 。。
结果应为这个月就快没钱了，我们便 order 了 menu 上最便宜的一餐 - DoryFish
胃口还不错，但只是普普通通而已。。
他们给两片炸鱼。。反而吃了有点儿腻。。





吃完晚餐过后，我们看了一部电影- The Proposal
还不错，有些部分挺好笑的。。
由于传着高跟鞋，脚好痛，看完戏之后加大巴士回家了。

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昨天，我和衣玲到 National Library 去读书和作 project。。
结果只做了一点的 project， 却没动到 Business Finance。。
真惭愧。。
读到一半时，Leonard 还上来找我们，说了一声“嗨”就走了。。
他说衣玲好像不是很想他上来，所以他掉头就走了。。 哈哈。。笨猪。。
我们一面作project，一面找美食。。
结果想到 Little India 吃印度餐。。 哈哈。。
我们从 ieatishootipost 的 网站看到一间满不错的印度餐馆，打算试一试。。
那地方在 Selegie Road.. 我们找了 Street directory, 再去 hunt 哪个 place。。
Ta-da! 我们找到了！






可喜的是，食物没有往上讲的那么好吃。。 ）：

EAT

Last Sun was Joyjoy's bdae celebration.
We had fun.
Had fun teasing heihei and wads the guy's name.
haha.
Hope Joyce had fun too!
Thanks baby for helping out.
I know u were damn tired and had to wake damn early the next morning but you still accompanied me stay till late.
Thanks! lub u! (:





Dad suddenly say wanna dine out at Changi Village Hawker on Mon.
Just nice that the market was having spring cleaning.
So we went to the Ubin Seafood Restaurant beside. haha..
wow.. Papa go and order the bamboo shell thingy..
I was so happy cuz i wanted to try that long ago but it was too expensive for me to try.
It costs $8 per piece that day and dad order without realising the price.
He ordered 4, one each.
He only realise when we told him about the price.
hahahahaha.. but ok la.. he dun have much reaction. so JUST EAT!
Hmm.. tried it. It was okay.. quite nice. sweet. But Gonggong was comparable.
So i will definitely not spend $8 on one bamboo shell.
I rather spend it on a plate of gong gong or go market buy better still. =D
Had flower crabs too. and the cuttlefish vege, and jacket fish.
Bill up to $99.82. :/




Shitty things happened that night.
Baby was emoing.
But i didn't blame him cuz i know he it's not his normal self.
But it got me frustrated when i got wronged further by him even though i comforted him.
So i was super duper angry that night.
He apologised.
Suppose to meet him day after.
i was still angry, but told myself to just forget and forgive.
But he was late.
i'm suppose to meet him at Tampines for dinner after sch.
And found out that he was lying on his bed when i reached Tamp.
I got even more upset.
cuz he didnt even sound surprised when he knew he was late.
ya, i went to the extend that i hid in the washroom cubicle at Tamp One and cried.
It's like i feel so unimportant.
i thought knowing that i was angry, the more he shouldnt be late.
and he argues that i didn't understand how tired he was as he had little sleep for past few days.
I just dun wanna mention 'me too'.
I even can fall aslp during lec that day.
First time in SIM.
i was so angry but i make the effort not to be angry and meet him up so as to minimise quarrels.
but ya, shit came out.
and silence most of the time.
i was thinking if i was stupid.
I initiated to hold his hands but didn't felt him holding it tight.
I initiated again to hug him but he just stood there.
I turned my body ard immediately, totally disappointed.
i still dun think im at fault. but i initiated things and got ignored.
I felt real lousy.
Well, things were in the end sorted and i knew he was angry with me for not understanding that he has not enough sleep that's why he's late. =.=
and angry with me for flaring up at him because he was late. sigh.
But i still feel i got more right to be angry with him right? Zzz.
wellwell, it's over anyway.
although up till now if i mention i still get angry.
but keep reminding myself that a "sorry" or a hug heals everything.


Met baby yesterday.
Sushi at Nihon Mura.
Eat till super full again.
Movied "Where Got Ghost" by Jack Neo.
Super Duper Funny!
Laugh till i tear!
Although it's not a very good show,
but the funny part is worth watching. haha.
YL even wanna watch 2nd time. lol

Today was dinner with Heihei and joyjoy.
Decided not to go Arnold's in the end.
So heihei drove us to this wonderful place that has Western, Jap, Chinese, Thai and Germany cuisine to choose from since we were so indecisive. =D
In the end we tried the Thai Restaurant. There's this promo - $1 for a seafood dish if spend a minimum of $38.
So we spent minimum $38 and got Crab Tang Hoon for just $1.
We really know how to eat man.
We really had a spread. SEE BELOW!

Bored

I have been spending.. D:
The middle pic are my presents for 21st bdae.
Thanks people!
The others are those i bought.
I take it as the Queens gave me the Oxymask set, B-liv Gdbye those Heads, and an External Hard Disk (Yet to purchase).





The Om nom noms.
Macadamia nut.
The Nut shell broke.
Meiji Poifull Jellybeans!
I rmb i keep buying it during Poly Yr 1. =3

Bias!

It's obviously bias and i dun wanna argue with u!
I didn't loose but i still cried.
Why is it that it is always me.
I am the one who always washes the dishes besides u.
I am the only one that takes my meals myself.
I am the one who helps u out occasionally.
I dun mean that i am good because i did all these.
Ya, this is my duty.
But why don't you tell them off when they never even did a single chore?
and yet, keep nagging at me when i helped u out.
It's not like i dun wanna help u today.
It's not like i'm playing or what.
I'm studying. I'm trying to do my school work.
So what's the big fuss?
Isn't it so unfair?
They even need you to scoop the rice and the dishes on a plate nicely ready to serve them.
They dun even wash their dishes or even bring them to the sink.
Can you even think before u scold me?
U dun even blame my sis for not folding clothes or whatsoever.
and many other things i dun wanna mention.
I know, im the dumbness of them all.
I'm in the middle of them so i got no special treatment.
I can't even fight for a study table.
My sis will always be the priority when it was stated that the table was to be shared among us.
Complaining isn't gonna work. She's just going to keep quiet.
I rmb my sis telling me. " I let you to use the table last night leh!" one day when i was having exam, as if the table is all hers, which she admits she thinks that way.
It's so frustrating when i heard that.
Sometimes, i just wish she wasn't born.
i dun deny she's a good companion sometimes but she's really getting on my nerves at times.
Everyone in the family esp parents seem like they are afraid of her cuz of her temper.
So what if she's fierce. So you gave in to her most of the time?
You said my temper is bad.
Is it really?
I think i only angers more easily when i'm at home cuz it's full of unfairness.
You always said i'm the spoilt cuz i always get what i want.
I have heard you say this sentence for at least 15 years?
All because of the toys i wanted to get when i was young.
Things like Barbie dolls, Scrabble, Life, gameboy.
I admit i wanted quite a number of things when i was young and i get you all to buy for me.
BUT am i the only one?
His Legos were much more expensive.
My barbie doll is only 1. and perhaps 2 sets of clothes and that's all.
His were collections.
Not only i get what i wanted, my sis got it too. Things like gameboy and digimon.
She would have rejected.
But all these.. it's normal for a child to whine for.
But after that?
What did i ask for?
For that, you have been calling me a spendthrift for 15 years..
Oh no, you always said it like " 家里最会花钱的就是你了！"
Enough of it will you?
Even if i did, i used my own money to pay for them.
Things like camera, ps2 and handphones.
and then why dun you say my sisteres spendthrift as well?
I rmb you scolding me when i buy clothes home but never scold sis when she does.
You just curiously look at what clothes she bought.
My another sis. She's spendthrift as well, just that you dun see it.
It's not as if i am a person who doesn't know how to save.
Sigh, don wanna talk about it anymore.
I know you care, but i know i always come last among them.
I'm sorry if i raised my voice at you but i just couldn't help, being on the unfair side.

Tired

It has been a really tired day!
But here i am blogging at 12.30am.
cuz i'm too full to slp.

Freaking tired these 2 days.
DUnno why..
I have been falling deeply aslp on the train while on the way to sch.
ZzzZzzZzz..
Today is SSCM individual project submission.
Submitted the project with no confidence at all.
The teacher seriously sucks.
can fall aslp in his lec.
Reached sch today, wanted to print lec notes.
But becuz the comp in the lib is only microsoft viewer, we cant print our lec notes in handout form from there..
Gotta go to the photocopy room and queue for that 1 and only desktop.
Long queue because it's proj submission day.
Only can use that com to edit if u never bring ur own lappy.
Crap rite. Lousy facilities.
So we took damn long time to get the notes printed.
Of cuz we were late for lec..
Cuz we shopped at the Bazzar after printing. lol.
i bought a set of bikini and YL got a dress..
Damn cheap. haha.
YS bought a set of bikini too when she arrives at 3pm.
OL was thinking whther to buy a top but im not sure if she gets it in the end.
Me and YL only managed to attend the last 45 mins of the lec.
lol. anyway, he really teach just by almost literally reading out from the slides.
So actly wads the point of attending lec?
it's the most sian thing if u get this kind of lecturer.
It's like pay the money for nth and u attend lec as if u dun.

Was damn tired. and having heavy head after lec.
We were thinking whether to go shopping or not.
Anyway i'll be meeting baby at 7 plus at Bugis..
so thinking of just go out den meet him straight after that.
So Far East with YL and YS after lec.
We spent almost the same amt today.
Omg, BROKE is the word.
YS got herself a top and YL got herself a pair of wedges and me, a pair of heels.

Met baby for dinner at Bugis after that.
Suppose to go Sim Lim to buy external hard disk.
BUT... i dun think i can take it if i spend so much in a day.
so dropped the idea.
Perhaps wait for next month's IT fair.
Shopped a lil before baby reach.
Saw those kind of 2-piece (half half) swimsuit.
i wanna get BUT it's $79!
hais... i is no money. ):
Dinner at sakae..
seriously dunnno wad to eat.
so anyhow.





our recent chats are the topic of whether is he going to study or work after his NS.. and slowly link to the future. .
problems..
But i seriously think he should just work for 2 yrs first den see how. =/
Bus 23 back to tamp to get his bicycle den send me home.

Pinwen was on the same bus.
Not bad eh he still got buy me bdae present.
i thought he MIA me. lol.

Received a call from Kenneth.
He's in Thailand and he called back to wish me happy birthday.
Although it was abit late.. haha..
but thanks! i do feel honoured. lols.
See.. i always think my 4E2 guys are hao nan rens.
lols. ((:

Yum Cha

Friday was staying over at Yee Ling's house to do project..
Ya we did some of it.. haha..
but ended up playing because sasha intro-ed us a website www.omegle.com
It's to talk to strangers.
YL was laughing her ass off cuz of those conversations and that eventually wakes her 100%.
I went to bed at 2.30am while Yl, 4am.
Morning was bf at her hse.
Her mum made Banana cup cakes. but failed a little due too too much bananas in the recipe.
Headed to school for GM lecture after that.



YL & Winnie =3


Sunday was National Day!
Happy Birthday Singapore!
Happy 6 mths baby!
Day was spent at baby's house, BBQ-ing.
It was suppose to be a family BBQ but it just doesn't seem like one to me.
A serious talk about baby's future was started by his dad after the dinner.
His dad wanted him to study FT after NS and doesn't allow him to take part-time jobs! D:
D: D: D:
That will take like 3 years? D:
It worries me as well.
sigh.

Movie UP at 11.10pm. with joy and potato. It wasn't as what i expected.
Perhaps i have higher expectation. I find it abit boring.
i will rate it a 2/5.
Reached home at 1plus am.

Was awaken by my sis at 8am this morning.
Waking me up to go for Yam Cha at Chinatown.
It's a restaurant name Red Star Restaurant.















It was 9am when we reached.
Crowded with people though the place is quite ulu.
Queued for 25 minutes before we got our seats.
The restaurant is quite big and it's those HK style with waitress pushing the carts of dim sum around.





















Haha. This pic was blurred cuz the auntie moved.
The food was quite nice.
Some of them are unique.
But the price is expensive too.
The normal dim sum u get outside is about $2.50 to $2.80.
But i think there is from $3.40 onwards.
We ate a total of $70 for 5 pax.

Sum up

Met up family for korkor's bdae..
Sakae-ed at Wheelock Place.
After that movie at Cathay.
Forgotten what's the title of the movie. =x





Met up with SY and XN for a hair cut some day before my bdae celebration.
We decided to give Storm a try since there's a promotion going on.
Haircut + Wash + Blow = $20.90.
I wanted just a trim initially.
But ended up a big difference.
But still acceptable. ((:
Slacked at Cartel after that.
The snack is really cheap after the 50% off.
$1.10 each for the platter.. Hahahaha.. =P





Sat was my 21st bdae celebration.
was kinda disappointed at first cuz the most impt ppl were all late.
only left baby and me trying hard to blow and decorate the balloons in time.
and to go and rent and carry the 2 BBQ pits.
But luckily, things turned out fine.
Now i understand what Rui Heng told me previously.
Confirm gonna be busy even if there's nothing really to prepare before going.
Realize alot of things that i missed out.
Things like Scissors, Rags, and ya i think i really should make clear what's included in the catering and the quantity, price and so forth.
But it's ok.. Everyone has their first time.

Really wanna thank:
#1. Baby - for helping me out with everything and really be so sweet.
I love the flowers!
Thank eu for helping with the balloon decorations, standing whole day and BBQ-ing for my guests and never eat much despite your sprained foot.
I know it's hard for u to quit smoking.
But i noe u did for me.
I can understand if sometimes u are still tempted.
I'm seriously touched by things u've done for me, told me, and promised me.
I felt it that they are from the bottom of your heart.
I will cherish you too.
Love ya deep!

#2. Wei Quan - for catering me the food and full service (delivering, BBQ-ing, Buying extras) provided. haha.

#3. Eugene - for being one of my BBQ man and helping out with the decorations.

#4. Queens - for helping me out with the decorations(and sasha), BBQing, serving my guests and trying to get me whatever John might not be able to give (the helium balloons). haha.
Thank u gers! *Hugs*

#5. Friends who stayed overnight - Thanks for making the nights alive.

#6. All other guests - Thanks for your prescence, wishes and gifts and ang baos. Sorry for not being a good host!

Some of the pics taken using my HP.





Dinner with Heihei, Joy and XM after school on my actual bdae at Wisma Atria's Food Republic.
One of the Jap stall.
The main purpose was to eat the SHIOK SUSHI.
It was really damn SHIOK!
Shopped alittle and Durian desserts at Goodwood Park Hotel after that.
Super sinful!





Met Baby at Cartel at around 10.45pm.
Bought Durian shruddel and crepe for him since he craving for durian the day before.
slacked till 11.30pm before going home.
Nothing much. No pic! ):