disappointing results

haiz.. todae.. although last paper liao.. should be veri happy de.. but who knows tt Ms Nora gave us back our results todae.. mark so fast...-.-" haiz.. got C6 onli... sad sia.. cuz paper 2 qn 1 i alreasy dunno how to do liao.. on provision for doubtful debts aR... haiz.. Nv even bother to see how much exactly i got.. saw C6 den sian liao.. tt qian ting.. eveytime sae dunno how to do.. nv study .. den still got A2.. but good for her.. haiz.. like a lot ppl in our class dun haf good results sia.. den todae last paper..science MCQ.. go sch one hr den come back liao.. after the exam den go interchange eat mac.. with April and Liu jing... den met Nurul & Farhana.. den sit together .. after that go shop shop for yue zhu and Xiang xian's present lor.. and my sis's.. all b'dae over de.. haha.. no time to buy present ma.. until now lor.. Onli these few daes got time to go out.. Fri, Sat, and Sun.. after that need to go back to study again liao.. Prelims sure do till veri cham one.. going out later again.. cuz juz now nv buy anithing.. sian sian

examz~

haix... YEsterdae ar.. study poa till siao.. veri difficult leh..! need to call n call ask ppl.. den.. suddenly cannot contact qian ting.. den dunno how liao.. cuz her poa quite good also.. sian... Look at all my test papers all full marks de.. but then when i look at it again.. forgot how to do le.. why like this .. why like that... =( den com online discuss with wee koon.. ask him teach me.. he taking POA also ma.. den.. online till 12+ like that.. den go sleep le.. so many to study... dun even have time for maths.. ! haiz.. then cannot sleep... until 2+ den fell asleep.. in my dreams.. dream of POA also.. -.-" dreamt wee koon online .. test me poa qns.. den all i dunno how to do.. realli can feel brain wanna crack..! den 5am wake up le.. veri sleepy.. cannot open eyes.. den look at poa w/s lor.. den maths.. onli memorise the formulas... who knows... so difficult sia..! a lot of ppl cannot finish.. me.. on the dot finish.. but.. still dunno a lot of qns lar! everyone keep saying... prelim flunk liao lar.. work hard for O lvls can liao... haiz.. actually its quite true.. by wad we've been tested so far.. like all bu shun li one.. tt kind of juz pass or fail... haiz.. die.. dunno how to gen senior jiao dai about prelims results sia.. :S haiz... go study MT nw.. tata

slacking...=(

haiz.. todae.. dunno y... nv study much... tried to study le.. but stare at the book.. got study la i mean.. but a bit only.. cannot concentrate.. in the end study abit maths.. a bit geo .. n a bit POA... the least is POA .. todae.. toked to him in msn.. haiz.. dunno y he everytime tok.. den like... wan to quarrel like tt de.. and not interested.. haiz.. scared.. sad..

chou nan ren~!

[14th Sep 2004]

Today.. qi si qo ler.. si jian wei.. say want to teach me POA on Todae at first.. Then i dun wan ma.. cuz wanna study for ss on thursday.. then he sae nvm teach me ss.. but i dun feel like going.. then he's like..wanting me to go his house.. want to teach me ss.. but i told him i dun wan to go.. den later he angry.. den i say see first.. He kept asking whether i confirm going or not.. say he come school fetch me go.. but i told him not confirm liao.. then todae.. after practical i messaged him say dun wanna go his hse le.. den he so angry like that.. sae wad.. wait for mi so long... whole dae.. pontang lesson somemore.. den angry somemore.. say wanna delete my hp no. & msn contact.. wa lau.. siao.. attitude problem man.. i already told him i dun wish to go lor... and i nv ask him to wait for me.. is he is the one who wans me to go and pei him.. if not he sian.. den now i dun wan to go .. he so angry.. somemore i never ask him to wait for me n pontang his lesson lorx.. siao man... den want to fa pi qi with me.. and make me so angry.. den i tell him he has no rights to be angry with me lorx.. it is his fault wad.. so unreasonable.. wan to fa pi qi den fa pi qi.. xiao ding dong.. chou nan ren!

[15th sep 2004]

Today ar.. got eng prelim.. hmm.. ok la.. luckily the paper not so difficult.. comprehension passage can understand.. compo.. eh.. write until 653 words.. over limit liao..=X but onli 2 pages.. maybe handwriting small ba.. think teacher wun know la hor.. =p wrote bout stupid things.. cuz dunno wad to write ma.. den onli one qn can write in narrative form only.. so no choice lorx..

Lost ss TB!!!

haiz.. todae veri sway.. juz found out tt i can't find my ss tb..!! a few more daes exam lehx! haix.. trying hard to find ppl who can lend mi the book..haiz.. i juz saw it yst morning onli.. and brought it out to study..!!! could anione took my tb by mistake?? not april n yi da.. could it be qianting?? but she slept liao.. haiz.. so kan jiong.. cannot be ma.. cannot find lehx... aHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

wad to do.... jian wei has the tb.. ask mi now go n take.. but cannot go out now ma.. den tml whole dae he not free.... then think.. if realli cannot find den tues go his hse take liao.. no choice.. if not wo sui si dao hen nan kan de..!

and todae.. i dunno y i sae sry to him also.. i said.. den he reply..anithing.. anithing????? like dun care also...! haiz!!!! y did i bother to sae sry?

studies~~~

hey.. today's another study day again.. hmm.. intended to go TP library study today de.. with April,Qian ting , Yi da.. and.... Yu Xiang.. and pauline ar.. then cannot enter lib lehx.. need scan card.. =X den go to a bench in engeneering sch study ar.. haiz.. blog half way no mood to blog liao.. He say till.. i cannot miss him like that.. n.. some kind of scolding.. i got study ma.. no communication btw us? is u dun wanna tok to mi..! even if u have projs.. dun believe since so many days.. not even a minute of free time? u dun even know wad u have done which will hurt me so much.. and that's becuz i love u too much! A little bit of things means a lot to me... U dunno!!! .... ......... ...... ........ ....... ......... ......... .......... ........... .......*heartbroken*..... .... ....... ......... ...... . ....... . ......... .. .
sob sob..='(

slpy..~

Todae ar.. woke up at 7.45am like that.. had a bad dream.. dreamt of female ghost crushing my bone.. and i can feel the pain when i woke up.. pain sia... dunno y.. okay.. then eat breakfast liao .. bath.. then went out.. meet them go Tp lib study lorx.. we decided to sit seperately from one another so as not to end up chatting.. o ya.. then qianting got this friend in TP.. never meet before one.. but she say not net friend.. forgot how she know him worx...Then qianting juz told him that we were at the 5th floor of the library only ar.. he know which one is qianting liao.. so li hai.. nv meet before also know.. library so many ppl.. how he know is one of us ar.. maybe we are the only ones who dun look like poly students ba.. kekex.. we didn't even notice any suspect that maybe him.. den after that he sae he at 3rd floor le.. so we went to find out who is he and shun bian go for lunch after that... qian ting dun wanna call him.. so ended up i was the one who called.. hear his voice.. ok la.. like joker like that.. den ask him where is he .. he dun wan sae.. he sae he saw us somemore.. but we cannot find him.. hide himself.. then notice 3 guys.. there smiling.. den suspect.. den call again.. he pick up phone.. den know is which one liao.. haha.. okok looking la.. but like xiao didi.. haha..
then after that we went for lunch.. but dunno which canteen to go.. go business school de canteen .. see liao got kong ju gan.. so many ppl ar.. pai seh.. haha.. then after that go find Nicole(april's sis) first.. then we went to that canteen near the bookshop ar.. got 2 storey one.. den me,april and liu jing ate kway chap.. qianting ate prawn mee.. also like not much choice.. haha.. not bad la.. then bookshop buy sweet and drinks ar.. the went back to study liao.. study study till 3+ like that den veri sleepy le.. wanna slp.. but nv la.. study till.. 4 like tt ar.. liu jing say veri cold ar.. den we all go outside study lor.. go.. business school the bench there study.. feel so wierd sia.. so many students walking pass.. den they sae they look at us in a wierd way.. maybe we realli dun look like poly students ba.. plus we have our bio tb.. physic tb.. chem tb.. and even Chinese book in front of us!!!! LOLX.. feel so wierd.. haha.. actually wan study till 7+ de.. den sis called n sae tonight got to go "jia dok" .. so have to go back early la.. den saw wee koon lo..at 4+.. she going friend hse do pro.. then when i reach home 6.30 like that liao.. then 7.45 like that go down.. "jia dok" .. my family n wee koon family one table lo.. actaully jia yi also got go one.. but in the end nv.. cuz sae too tired.. den dun wan go.. hmm.. the food not nice de lor.. onli like the last dish.. haha.. veri unique.. to me la.. some sae not nice. cuz it's like the "mua ji" ar..powdery one.. with ice-cream inside..quite nice.. but some eat a bit den dun wan liao.. haha..
meimei went for audition to act the I'm Not Stupid 2.. queue for so long time... No. 440 lehx.. got 600++ ppl went.. audition fee $10 somemore.. like that then the company can earn $6000+++ liao lor.. veri clever hor.. earn so much.. in the end also not compulsory get in.. even if they think u can act also need to sign up for training couses ar.. dunno wad.. for $800++ for the training course.. not compulsory can act somemore.. even if they let u act one small role or wad.. also pay u a little ma.. not even until the amount u have paid for the training courses.. they so clever huh..

dunno

today hor.. 6am woke up liao... then 7am like that go school.. for Literate.. watch the tweth night movie.. but watch half way.. miss quek say go home.. sch reopen den continue.. but y? y not watch finish.. den so early go sch juz to watch the bit..-.-" then after that came home.. bath, eat and ready to meet qianting at the bus stop opp TP... went library study.. qian ting haben eat.. so go eat first.. dunno wad to buy.. anihow walk into the sch of IT ar.. anihow buy one char siew su and one spring roll ar.. ask me help her eat one of it somemore.. den go library.. den april and her sis and liu jing ard 3 den met us.. then 5.30 like that go off liaox.. so sian.. tml go again.. meet them 9.30am.. realli muz study a lot things liao.. so slack..

forgot to bring my calculator..-.-"

First say yesterday de... haiz.. slack.. study ss.. but memorise so much liao.. like todae den forgot again.. haiz.. den felt that i study a bit onli la.. sianx.. then mama at wee koon hse play majiong.. say there dark dark .. later at night go home alone very scary.. so i accompany her go home lorx.. met jia yi and ming hui for dinner.. ate Genki Sushi.. $40++ .. then go walk walk a bit then go wee koon hse lerx.. by the time already 9+pm liao ba.. then suddenly relise.. the nxt dae got Maths test!!! Forgot bout it sia.. haben practice.. then so late then can go home.. haix... den remind myself to rmb to bring calculator, mathematical set and curve rule.. but ....
This morning i fount out that i forgot to bring calculator!!! haha.. den faster borrow from Mr Ang.. still say what 10 cents for 10 mins sia.. haha.. but of cuz nv la.. wah.. den a few qns dunno how to do lehx.. cham liao la.. then after that we got class outing.. go watch movie.. Mrs Danial's treat.. haha... watched Anacondas.. haha.. Nice show man.. kanna scared by one of the part.. haha.. azimah beside me bigger reaction.. jump a bit.. lolx.. then after the movie.. me,yan ling,qian ting,gareth and azimah went arcade.. but azimah left shortly after.. so left the 4 of us.. Azimah,qianting,yan ling and me played Daytona.. lost to Yanling.. got 2nd.. actually first de..bu fu qi.. haha.. den played the wad ar.. hockey ar.. the table one.. play till now my hand going blue black liao.. pain sia.. then later we food court.. gareth and Yanling ate.. me n qianting ate ice cream onli.. den later go walk a bit.. den go into the M1 shop see the phone i like... sony ericson k700i.. cool man.. den later when walk out of the shop.. then.. "may i help you?" my biao ge lehx.. ! haha.. He didn't recognise me at first.. haha.. but heng he recognised me.. he has change liao.. his face.. turn so cute.. esp when he laugh.. haha.. now studying in TP ba.. forgot ask wad course he's taking.. last time small always meet cousins every weekend de.. but now leh.. once a year..=( and hardly talk one... so.. not good sia.. haiz..
then after that come back home le lorx.. den eat dinner.. watch 1 hr TV.. den go do maths practice paper given todae.. but .. did a few qns onli fall asleep liao.. bua ta han.. too tired.. yesterdae 2am den fall asleep.. cuz stupid sister sae veri cold.. dun wanna on the air-con.. make me so hot.. cannot sleep..slp liao also not comfortable.. den 6am have to wake up for sch liao.. tts y so tired.. but i realli feel like blogging.. so i slpy also come online to blog.. haha..

Todae saw someone at interchange look like him a lot .. but dun think is him la.. den suddenly miss him alot again.. haiz.. think he dun like me le... if he like me den he wun like tt de... can feel.. by the way he reply me sms.. like dun care like tt.. like feel tt i veri fan like tt.. haiz.. sad.........

Tml go TP Library study again.. after going to sch to watch the movie on Twelth Night.. go home .. change den go out again.. no choice.. must force myself to study.. realli dun think want to go Poly lehx.. cuz dun realli like the life in Poly.. like so disorganise.. and got so mani projects..
JC is more organised.. but scared A lvls.. the most Difficult examinations among all the major exams lehX.. but i dun think i can make it to JC also.. haiz..dunno..
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pissed off~

haiz.. bad day.. today ar.. morning liu jing called.. sae wan come my hse.. den ater ask mi go library.. but she 1pm need to go liao.. den ok lor.. i go study literature.. den later call april.. ask her come library with us.. but she sae she's in Tp.. in the end ask mi go there.. den after 1pm liao.. i went home.. eat.. and come out again.. buy food for april..go TP library study..saw wei lin.. do maths.. haiz.. end up chatting n smsing.. until 5.. her sis's class finish.. go meet her.. sat at the bench there.. for 1 hr.. den go with them to the lecture.. cuz aniway.. got to go pinwen hse at 7.30.. the lecture end at 7 ma.. is.. social psychology.. nv listen.. wasted my time there.. haiz.. is bcoz a guy call marcus go so they wan to go de.. so after that i going to pinwen hse.. but dunno how to go ma.. den later pinwen sae he dunno we going his hse do pro.. den yong min on the other side say they already set the time yesterday..-.-" den pinwen not at home.. outside.. den sae onli available after 8.. den i 8.30 got to go home liao.. but nvm.. den think the both of them also annoyed with each other.. den.. everybody not happy.. so early.. also dunno where to go.. somemore realise that suman not going..-.-" if i know she not going den i also duno go liao.. den actually took 69 back to interchange de.. but den think again.. maybe can meet 'him' .. so drop off at the stop near sch main gate de..dunno y.. irritated.. and veri hot.. den slowly walk.. ask 'him' can meet not.. but he sae bz with pro.. haiz.. miss him... when he sae cannot meet .. even more sad.. haiz.. and think tts a rare chance i got time to meet him.. but he no time.. =( wait for yong min at tt bus stop lo.. haiz.. den reach pinwen hse liao but he not home yet.. by then already 8.13 liao he haben come back.. den think.. even if he come back le , i onli can go in 15 mins like tt onli can do wad.. so i went home after tt le.. haben eat.. haiz.. hungry hungry..den poa and maths haben do.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dunno how to do POA la... haiz.. damn sad... onli started chem and lit revision.. i'm so slow... stupid me!

Btw, i hate myself..! i was so annoyed while going home.. in the bus.. i got my seat.. and did not stop at the interchange.. den another group of ppl coming up the bus wad... beside mi was an old man.... and i didn't realise it until i was stopping at my stop!!!!!!!!!!... i should have gave up my seat to him ...!!!!! argh!!!! i was thinking n thinking .. until i didn't realise an old man standing next to me...='( I was so bad... haiz.... damn sad la..... sad ...

bad luck

hiaz.. so so so headache.. suddenly dunno how to do maths.. geometry assignment.. speedtime graph also suddenly forgot how to do....=( todae dunno why like not in so good mood sia.. this morning saw handphone bill on the sofa.. open see the amount.. wa lao.. so expensive!!!.. anyway, i've guessed it la..tt it will exceed the limit.. but didn't expect so ex lorx.. $80 lehx.. have to pay myself.. sianz lorx.. haiz.. actually thought veri happy.. this month can save quite a lot de..put aside $40 for my bill still left ard $60.. but who knows the bill double the actual amount.. so have to take away $40 from savings.. left $20 to save..=(

then morning while walking down to take bus.. saw the bus come liao.. den run.. but in front of the bus door.. dig for my ez-link cut but dun have! so quickly walk away.. so pai seh.. haiz.. forgot to take ez-link card.. den call mama ask her bring down for me..

Then todae's lessons ar.. almost all need to do work.. tt kind need to write long essays de.. so tiring la.. but if never do work will fall asleep.. must eat sweet or something den can be awake.. then tml still got eng tests.. 2 eng tests i think.. if i'm not wrong.. dunno wad international de thingy ar.. sure do till head big big one..

Dunno why lorx.. todae.. veri sad.. veri irritated and annoyed.. miss him so so so much.. haiz..juz cannot stop thinking of him even if i try to.. haiz.. tml maybe going church.. qian ting at first say wan to go.. but now she say dun feel like going.. den dunno lo.. i also dun wan go alone de ma..

next week is teachers day liao.. this yr nv buy anything at all for any teachers.. wan to save money.. haha.. haben arrange with pri sch friends to go back pri sch also.. think will go out with miss tang ba.. every year also like tt.. think she become more n more fierce le worx.. but she veri good to us when she thought us in the year 2000.. i have seniors in junyuan also thought by her.. they hate her like hell.. haha.. cuz she always throw things like chalk and duster de.. but she treat us the best lo.. she also say she dunno why.. haha.. got one time.. our class didn't do well for our mathematics test.. den she so disappointed and go to teachers room and cry.. then the whole class also.. realise our mistakes.. den whole class cry also.. den 2 by 2 go to the teachers room and apologise to her.. haha.. our class veri united one.. teachers dae also celebrate.. party in the class.. and is so well organised.. each bring something.. decorate classroom.. even can ran out sch to coffee shop but food... den play games.. got forfeit.. so fun la.. not like now.. so sianx one..

sad...

hmmm.. todae.. receive poa test.. full marks! didn't expect.. haha.. hmm... chinese lesson sian.. everyone like no mood to continue lesson le.. den chat chat.. haha.. veri funny... every MT lesson fiona and mi sure will sae tt we r hungry one.. den tok tok bout food.. haha.. every lesson like tt.. so funny.. everydae ard 9pm sure will hungry de.. haha.. still need to wait till 10.45 den reccess.. haiz.. so sian.. todae's essembly quite funny lor.. think this is the onli assembly almost eveyone pay attention to.. haha.. it's about different masks(faces)..can reflect on how we feel.. and ppl often put on diff masks on diff ocassions..
after assembly liao den go home.. juz reach home onli.. realise that a call from polyclinic juz called and sae grandma have to go for checkup immediately.. if emergency den muz go hospital.. haiz..=( den father mother not at home.. bro n sis drive her go.. den in the end still have to stay in hospital..=(.. haiz..

Tues

heyhei... haha.. todae hor.. hmmm.. got PE.. hehe.. den dun have frisbee( dunno how to spell) lesson liao.. can do when ever we want.. haha.. some play captain ball.. some play frisbee.. and some.. sat down chatting.. and some play childhood games.. lolx.. i'm one of them.. haha .. nothing to do ma.. actually other PE lessons taught by mr tan also veri relax one.. dun wear pe shirt also can.. haha..hmmm... xiang ni, joan,su man, shi ying,wei kei,nurul,qian ting, azimah and me actually played the wolf game.. the game all of us played when we were young.. asking the wolf wad time issit and and have to walk how mani steps towards the wolf.. and when the wolf sae it's dinner time!, we have to run back to our home.. and not get caught by the wolf.. haha.. sounds kinda stupid.. but i think we all enjoyed it la.. even teacher join us in the game.. haha.. den later we played lao ying zhuo xiao ji.. haha.. wen long n pinwen joined.. kinda tiring eh.. haha.. i know it's veri childish.. but who cares.. i think it's gonna be our last PE lesson.. veri tiring.. after that.. chem lesson.. actually interested in tt topic.. bout alkanes,alkenes,alcohol,carboxylic acids all that.. and todae... i forgot wad i have learnt! OMG.. know why? cuz i veri tired... after PE and after reccess ma.. everyone tired.. geo lesson half asleep le.. hehe.. after sch still got maths remedial.. but ok la.. at least awake le.. den given prac paper to do.. not bad... can do most questions.. and quite fast.. haha.. sian.. den finally .. go home time! haiz.. tt stupid bro.. bring my modem over to his laptop nv bring back.. i knew it.. yesterdae come back home onli buai song.. still sae wan to take dunno wad thing from my new com.. heard from mama tt he big quarrel with sis yesterdae morning.. stupid idiot la him.. my money for the com lor.. he sae wan to take den take ar? go n die manx.. lock his room door.. tell him properly i wan go in take something dun wan to open door.. ask my mother go ask him open.. den he buai song.. after i take my thing liao still scold mi san ba... idiot la.. wad i did man.. didn't even tok to him a single word yesterdae lor.. everytime use internet onli wan to lock door.. dunno wad he doing man.. now he make my elder sis so angry liao.. now is like.. me and my 2 sisters hate him to the core man.. wan to be a man also dunno how to be.. so sissy also.. YUCKS!

i feel hurt~

These few days, i felt that 'H' has been ignoring me and there's a barrier between us. Is there some misunderstanding? Well, todae during recess, i decided to ask 'H''s friend, 'Y' whom i think she knew something. 'Y' said that she was not sure but if it was wad she was thinking.. so i ask her to sae out her thoughts. She said 'H' told her that i am a bit 'wad'. 'H' said that i have the money and yet i ask 'L' to buy that b'dae present for me. tt's why she felt that i am veri de 'wad'. I felt so hurt when i heard that. In the first place, did i ask for that present? the answer is 'NO!' 'L' and i were just having a casual chat somedae and ,true, i mentioned that i like tt wallet and ask her to buy for me, but of cuz, i was juz joking! 'L' knew that i was joking.. i was in a joking manner ok.. and i knew tt it's impossible for her to buy the wallet.. as it's rather expensive. But who knows after some days, 'L' told me that she is buying that for mi and sharing with some other friends.but after some daes i told her that it's ok ans asked her not to buy, but she insisted. Then veri pai seh wad.. so i said i pay part of it. Until now the wallet is not yet bought la. 'L' kept asking me which day am i free to go and buy the wallet together, but i told her i was not in a hurry to want that wallet and told her perhaps after O lvls.

But to think that my close frien, 'H', thinks that i'm behaving in a veri 'wad' way,asking present from friend, my heart really sank. Do u think that i that sort of person? I NEVER ASK FOR IT OKAY! I realli feel so hurt when 'Y' told mi that, and tears forming. Imagine a friend whom u thought really cares about you thinks and say you in such a way? OMG! Althought this is juz wad 'Y' thought, it is already a fact that she thinks me like this.'H' thinks that i'm rich, but that's onli wad she thinks. It's not the fact. She don't know about my family problems. After all this, i told 'L' that she really don't need to buy the present. Of cuz, she can feel something wrong from my expression, and asked me wad happened and why. But i kept quiet.

I found out that 'H' maybe ignoring meis becuz she found that there is suddenly no topic to talk between us. 'A' told me that it was maybe that i stopped going home with 'H' and keep going to school and going home with 'M', that bring this barrier between us. If that's the case, i can stop going to sch n going home with 'M' animore. i just hope that 'H' will understand and may out friendship be healed in no time.

Todae POA new topic again. Quite easy la. 2 periods of Literatur,Ms quek's lesson.. everytime can talk full 2 periods without touching Literature de... she said our class got a ger pissed the examiner off by talking non-stop for half an hour worx! and tt whole group will be penalised. that ger must be crazy and guess who is she? is shi yu!

O lvl MT resultz n O lvl Eng oral~

todae ar.. as usual lor.. although know tt MT o lvl results coming out but also.. not looking forward to it.. not tense la.. sure will know the results de ma.. haiz.. not so good..B3.. maybe a few more marks onli can get A2 le..=( haiz.. nvm.. nxt try must score at least an A! haha... sian lorx.. must attend lessons... nvm... todae got eng o lvl oral somemore.. so sway.. both examiners old de.. and got no sense of humour like tt.. dunno how to laugh or even smile de.. =( and by my turn already 4+ to 5 le... can see the examiner yawn..haiz.. sway.. my class the pther grp so good.. got young and active examiners... see them laughing n smiling all the time... haiz... nvm.. i will score well de..! haha.

HaPpY bIrThDaE sInGaPoRe!

yoz.. todae is Singapore's birthday..hapy birthdae, Singapore! hmmm.. woke up at 10:30 todae.. quite late hor.. hee.. den watch tv.. do homework and study.. got maths tys homework.. but cannot do.. cuz forgot to bring home the book..=X hee.. watched the NDP on TV.. dunno y.. feel a bit excited.. cuz my sch choir performing.. hee.. onli managed to see shawn, victor and rebecca.. haiz.. dunno y.. todae got headache again.. and Todae got Singapore Idol worx.. watched abit.. den switched to channel i.. saw this show veri funny.. haha.. forgot wad's the show;s name liao.. quite bored todae.. tml can study whole dae again lorz.. dunno why todae nothing i also feel like blogging.. haha.. maybe juz feel like using the com ba... The daes of not having my com is too diff for me! haha.. have to use bro's laptop.. sianz.. nvm.. this sat can go buy ler..

WaD a SwAy DaE!

WhaT tHe F***! ok.. i dun wish to scold tt one..but i'm realli veri angry k.. Later suppose to go buy new com one.. Yong min and his bro helping me..He persuaded his bro veri long liao den can get him to help one..buy the things total cost below $1600..with LCD screen la.. Then told sister yesterdae liao..still sae can lend her Nets to me..Then this morning ask this ask that..like not happy like tt..KAO PEI!NAG AND NAG.. I THOUGHT SHE ALREADY AGREED.. LIKE DUN TRUST MY FRIEND.. ARGUED THE WHOLE MORNING.. TEARS FLOWING THE WHOLE MORNING..BRO FOR NOTHING ALOS WAN TO SCOLD N SHPUT AT ME.. DUNNO ANITHING ALSO WAN TO INTERRUPT.. WAN TO SLAP ME.. GO N DIE LA..! DAMN HIM! WHAT HAS IT GOT TO DO WITH HIM!IDIOT! WA LAU!KAO!NOW SIS SCREAM LIKE MAD.. OH NO! WHOLE FAMILY GO CRAZY.. SHE THOUGHT I BLAME HER.. SCAREAM LIKE CRAZY..DEN I TELL HER "I DUN BLAME HER!" DEN BRO COME SHOUT AT ME AGAIN.. IT'S NONE OF HIS BUSINESS OK.. WHAT HAVE I DONE WRONG MAN..SAE I MAKE TILL THE WHOLE FAMILY NOT HAPPY???!!! fINE!! I GO DIE LA! DEN WHOLE FAMILY VERI HAPPY LIAO! ANYWAY,HAVE I DONE ANITHING WRONG?I JUZ WAN TO BUY A COMPUTER.. AND I HAD THEIR PERMISSION OK... UNTIL THE DAE WHEN WAN TO GO N BUY DEN SISTER DUNNO Y.. CRAZY.. OBJECT.. ALREADY PLAN EVERYTHING LIAO WANNA MEET MY FRIEND LE.. DEN SHE COME SAE THESE THINGS.. SINCE SHE DUN TRUST MY FRIEND RITE, WAN TO ASK HER BF BUY N DO RITE, FINE LOR.. SHE CALLED HER BF LIAO WAD.. SAE NXT WEEK FREE WAN TO COME N DO MA.. DEN NOW DUNNO Y GO CRAZY.. CRY N SCREAM LIKE MAD.. SAE DUN ASK HIM DO LER.. IDIOTIC! SHE MAKE ME FEEL SO PAI SEH.. ITS LIKE TROUBLED MY FRIEND LIAO.. WAN ME NOT TO ASK MY FRIEND DO LE.. OK LO.. DEN NOW SHE DUN WAN HELP MI AGAIN.. WTF HER! DEN WAN MI ASK BACK MY FRIEND AR.. MUST BE CRAZY.. IT'S LIKE .. TROUBLED PPL SO MUCH LIAO STILL DARE TO GO BACK AND ASK FOR HELP AGAIN MEH.. SHE THINK I WUN FEEL PAI SEH ONE IZZIT.. NOW TT I ASKED FRIEND NOT TO DO LER.. SHE ALSO ASK HER BF NOT TO BUY..DEN WAD?! STUPID IDIOT!I'M SO DAMN ANGRY AND SAD NOW!!! I NEED HIM..! I NEED HIM! BUT JUZ DUN DARE TO CALL HIM OUT..I CAN TOK TO NOBODY!NOT EVEN MY PARENTS!THEY CAN ACT AS IF NOTHING HAPPEN.. EVEN THOUGHT ALMOST ALL THEIR CHILDREN ARE ACTING LIKE CRAZY NOW.. SAD!SAD!SAD!

I STAYED UP LATE YESTERDAE TO COMPLETE ALL MY HOMEWORK JUZ TO THINK THAT I GOT TIME TODAE TO GO OUT FOR A WHILE TO BUY THE THINGS NEEDED AND LATER COME HOME CAN STUDY.. BUT WHO KNOWS ENEDED UP LIKE THIS! IT CAN BE WHOEVER'S FAULT. I WANT TO BUY LCD SCREEN,SIS ALSO KPKB.. SOMEMORE I AM THE ONE PAYING, NOT HER! PARENTS ALSO DIDN'T SAE ANITHING,WHY SHE WANS TO CARE SO MUCH? iNFECT, MY DAD ENCOURAGE ME TO BUY A BETTER ABILITY COM. mONEY IS NOT THE PROBLEM LA.. AS LONG AS CAN BUY A GOOD AND LONG LASTING ONE..AND MY DAD HAS NO OBJECTIONO OK.. nOW I DUNNO WAD IS THE PROBLEM WITH MY SIS!"BLAMING HERSELF" SHE SAYS:"YA! IT'S MY FAULT!WHY MUST I CARE SO MUCH?WHY MUST I ACT AS IF I'M BOTH THE PARENTS?" BUT FROM HER TONE,OF CUZ SHE IS STILL BLAMING MI LA.. THINK I DUNNO AR.. NOW, SHE IS STOPPING HER BF FROM HELPING MI AS WELL! HOW NOW? I'M SO LOST OK..AS I'M TYPING, I'M CRYING..MY MOHTER LOOK AT ME ALSO DUNNO WAD TO SAE..I CAN SEE LA.. SHE'S WORRIED.. DUNNO WHY I CRY TILL SO CHAM.. DUNNO WAD I'M TYPE.. HALF TYPE HALF CRY..MUM SAE WAN CALL SIS BF.. ASK HIM HELP MI.. BUT I SAE DUN WAN..CUZ WITHOUT MY SIS PERMISSION..DUN THINK TT TT WILL BE NICE RITE.. LATER SHE ANGRY..HAIZ.. SO SAD! SO SAD NOW! JUZ FEEL LIKE BORROWING SOMEONE'S SHOULDER AND CRY.. AND CRY..AND CRY..!:'(

Still, I feeL tHaT BeIng WiTh AnYbOdy ElSe Is NO MORE HAPPIER than spending time with my choir mates. The bad times we had together is also considered HAPPY MOMENTS.. choir mates, if u all realised tt..=)

sadz

helox.. todae is the 7th of aug,, my cousin's 21st b'dae ler.. hmmm.. sad.. com spoil liao,,, now using bro's laptop,, u think i wan to use ar,, force to! he also dun let me use one... now he's out,, haiya,, nvm,,, wanna buy new laptop or destop,, dun care,, sis crazy,, so hot tempered,, i sae wan to buy laptop,, den she sae desktop better,, den keep toking toking.. i nv sae anithing,, tok tok till as if like scolding me like tt,, wa lao... siao one,, den sae till like my fault,, den quarrel lor,, make mi cry,, sian.. so todae's homework need ask yongmin help mi do,, bro dun let use,, haiz,, selfish! i buy le also dun let him use! idiot idot!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Long time nv use com le.. and haben blog for mani daes,, yesterdae sch got funfair,,, the concert,, i think this year is the best performance ba.. didn't expect victor to be performing alone.. doing those funny actions,.. haha,, if i know i join him hahha,, denn ..den the choir ... a bit disappointed la.. the NDP ppl,,, no smaile on their face one,, like all dead,, must go back and sae them liao... funfair sian,, no nice games to play,, no nice food to eat,, anihow spend the $4 lorx,, den walk around,, some seniors came back.. saw ho wai,, look a bit like freddie lehx,, hmm ,, den peiming,geraldine,wee koon, cheryl eng keong.. ya yi(lychee）anna(banana)=p.. minli , ke hui.. and,, him,,,,,,,,,, haiz,,, he is soooooooooo.... ..... ............... argh,,,, sadx........:'( den at night went out with shi ting walk walk at tm.. she pass mi present,, got her firends there,, haiz,, sian,, sad yesterdae,, so .. like nv tok to them lor... no mood,,, hai! got a lot h/w to do...later small sis wan buy slipper for mi,, den i go buy stacey's and clarrissa's present.. den come back den do homework lor.....

16th b'dae

HeYo.. yesterdae is my 16th b'dae.. can waych NC16..=X haha.. hmmm.. collected a number of presents ar.. haha... got earphone given by dunno yongmin n yanling n who.. den a bear bear and a bottle by li hin my junior.. den a soft toy n some chocolates given by azimah.. a treat to yoshinoya by hong jing.. and treat to mac by victor... and still have worx.. wallet by liujing,yue zhu,april n dunno who..and t-shirt from pure milk by mama n the .. izzit slurp..shirt by papa.. haben buy yet.. hahahaha.. den met him at mac.. smoking again..-.-" haiz..
actually nothing much.. so boring.. haiz.. o ya.. tt dae saw my pri sch friend, sophian.. ahha.. he's as cute as ever.. hee.. maybe todae going out with kim choo they all.. maybe onli ar..

Now in sch using com to blog.. hse com dunno wad happen again.. on also cannot on.. even if can.. use a while den hang hang hang.. sianx.. hmmm.. tt jia yi biao mei keep saying mi nv ask her go eat sakae sushi.. den i busy also ma.. den i ask her this fri go den she not free..>_< haha.. den i feel like buy the tamagochi.. new one.. sounds fun la.. can make friends through infrared.. can be bf & gf.. can mate n give birth de.. haha.. but costs $29.90 lehx.. no money la.. dunno wan to buy or not..now su man and azimah also feel like buying .. haha.. and more n more ppl playing liao..

choked by fishbone..>++++|>

haiyoya.. yesterdae morning eat ota onli will choked by fishbone... so sway manx..xia si wo.. go to the sink.. wish tt it will come out.. but i dunno how to make.. haha.. even force myself to vomit.. but the stupid fishbone still dun wan to come out.. so bo bian.. tried all sorts of method la.. but nv work.. wan to drink vinegar but no vinegar.. eat all sorts of things.. wishing tt it will go down.. but nv.. parents ask me to go hospital.. but i dun wan .. they sae till so scary like tt leh..haiz.. den of cuz get better la.. sometimes pain sometimes not.. but the pain still can ren a bit la.. den todae morning wake up thought wun liao.. but.. until.. when i eat dinner can feel the bone again.. stinging my throat.. ouch.. den decided to go down see doc.. but i wan to try drink vinegar.. cuz ppl always sae vinegar always veri effective one... den my hse no vinegar ma.. so went down to grandma hse.. got vinegar.. den drank 1 teaspoon.. den later like ok liao.. den nv go see doc le.. i think so ok onli la.. dun go n think bout it can liao.. but from yesterdae till now.. my throat something like sore throat like tt liao..

todae ar.. go sch as usual lor.. rain in the morning.. ask my dad drive mi to sch.. haha.. den.. thought after sch we got no eng test.. cuz mrs daniel last week sae this week no eng test ma.. den we planned to go yongmin hse straight after sch.. but who knows during last period.. mrs danial sae there's eng test..=( sae is good news somemore.. haiz.. paper2 .. hmm.. quite ok la.. den after tt den go yongmin hse.. by the time already 4+ liao.. did a bit thing onli lar.. den reach home already 7.30 like tt liao.. eat.. half way feel pain in throat lor.. go grandma hse n wadever .. come back.. 8+.. finish eating at 10.. den on the com.. thinking of writing blog.. but on the com also takes me 50 mins to on.. sianx sia..-.-" lao ya den dian nao.. dunno now the fishbone still stuck or not.. hope not... den tml got maths common test.. after tt go swensen eat... victor's treat for bdae .. haha.. haiz .. now already 11+ le.. so tired.. *yawn*.. came online juz to blog.. i everytime like tt.. haha.. but onli on the com onli takes mi 1hr..-.-"