FULL OF ...GRR.. FEEL LIKE BURSTING

arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....................
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
SHIT! FELT SO SHITTY!
Y WOULD THINGS TURN OUT LYK THIS?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!
Was thinking so much on the way home.. felt so shitty.. SIMPLY HURTZ... BUT i understand.. fully.. i know.. It hurts.. but i understand that the feeling cant be helped and it's juz the beggining.. i understand tt it taKes time.. i juz can't help it for now.. and feel that it's natural feeling.. But i juz wan to be the gd and best friend as before.. who play ard with and confide in.. can't i? Wad about now? not even a single word mentioned.. how sad can tis be..
And i tell u.. the feeling is DAMN DAMN xin ku.. having to hide ur emotions.. sadness all the way for such long time.. but wad to do..
Maybe have to take it step by step.. but.. i think it's going to be difficult..
Y Y Y Y... I dun think i have anione comfortable to tOk to .. as in.. into details.. except Marcus and Ray i guess.. but Ray is.. gone case.. i noe if i tOk to him he cfm will teach mi all the wrong stuff.. and Marcus.. i think he's getting busier.. but i know he will be there..

*SCREAMS*

HAO FAN AR!

2 more things to fan about.. one is the course think.. LOM/BIZ
Another thing is that.. this after ard 4+pm.. Buddy called and said Bsn got space le.. Marina Sq needs ppl.. i was delighted.. after that is tt stupid i-models called.. tt one .. no need sae la.. hang up straight.. den when i come home, mama said Ryan called and said that Turbomeca wan to extend mi 2 more weeks!! and den i was confused.. the job is ok.. not veri boring.. but cant communicate well with those aunties who speak cantonese.. and kinda not my type.. but the money is easy to make.. but i still enjoy sales.. although tiring.. Argh.. i dunnoooooooooooooo!!!!!!!!!