hmmm..?

School in the morning was alright.. had our lessons as usual.. eng was a bit different.. we need to use majong paper, siccors,glue and colour pens, and extracts... cut up extracts to form a story of minimum 350 words.. 2 periods to do.. plus 2 periods CME period do eng.. simply can't stand that... er xing de nan ren.. flirt.. yucks.. act like a child/student... maths's the last 2 periods.. asked for past year papers from mdm teng when the lesson ended.. on the way on, met yong shuang on 293 bus.. poor ger carrying so many books.. cuz exam drawing near.. muz bring home for studies.. nth much.. reached home,bath, help qian ting write her autograph book.. watch 7pm show.. den do POA h.w.. do half way.. heard some sae no need to do... some sae need to do.. but anyway.. got nth to loose.. do it den.. den come online.. to add tag board in my blog.. thought i online for a while can liao.. but used 1 hr.. suddenly he talked to me in msn.. shocked, excited? wondering what he might say.. some casual chat.. wondering if 2 ppl, a male n a female, love each other, but one of them really have no time.. can they be together? actually i think it's possible.. as long as they can be together.. and know that they love each other.. .. aniway..late le.. going to slp liao.. nitex...zZz

kuai yao ku si le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

my results sux! sux! study so hard still like that.. even deteoriorated! haiz... R4 already so high.. can't even enter poly! wth.. maths n poa so lousy..... althought this time fail onli one sub.. but the rest C5 n 6s.. i rather fail the mei you yong ones and improve my maths n poa... and my chem!!!! Bio B4 + chem C6-->C5..!!!! :'( sob..... -gone studying-

At Night blogging:

O... damn sad.. actually todae go central park play candles de... but yi ge yi ge becuz of bad results no mood to go.. actually i also no mood to go after receiving my results todae.. juz now went to ah ma hse.. she's ill.. out of a sudden..juz came back from the doc.. so fragile.. lying on the bed.. struggled with the pain...cannot event walk by herself.... i dunno wad to sae.. dunno wad to do.. felt so helpless.. onli stood in a corner and watched quietly.. bearing with the tears.. she was so worried .. worried about so many things.. her sons and daughters.. all so unfilial.. cried as she pant.. my mother, comforting her.. holdin her, making sure that she sits properly in her position.. she was trembling all the while, so weak.. so weak.. crying and panting, and at the same time, keep asking me, my bro and sis, to go back home early n prepare for exams.. she simply worries too much.. too much... this and that.. but actually it's nothing.. she thinks too much.. and juz can't stop crying.. i wanted to comfort her too.. but juz .. dunno how to put in words.. felt so helpless.. and useless... tt i cannot do much to help.. after that.. mum told me Grandma told her that these few days, she dreamt of my ah gong and all those aunts who were dead inviting her to their hse.. i was so afraid .. that my first drop of tear finally rolled down.. haiz.. ]

disappointing results

haiz.. todae.. although last paper liao.. should be veri happy de.. but who knows tt Ms Nora gave us back our results todae.. mark so fast...-.-" haiz.. got C6 onli... sad sia.. cuz paper 2 qn 1 i alreasy dunno how to do liao.. on provision for doubtful debts aR... haiz.. Nv even bother to see how much exactly i got.. saw C6 den sian liao.. tt qian ting.. eveytime sae dunno how to do.. nv study .. den still got A2.. but good for her.. haiz.. like a lot ppl in our class dun haf good results sia.. den todae last paper..science MCQ.. go sch one hr den come back liao.. after the exam den go interchange eat mac.. with April and Liu jing... den met Nurul & Farhana.. den sit together .. after that go shop shop for yue zhu and Xiang xian's present lor.. and my sis's.. all b'dae over de.. haha.. no time to buy present ma.. until now lor.. Onli these few daes got time to go out.. Fri, Sat, and Sun.. after that need to go back to study again liao.. Prelims sure do till veri cham one.. going out later again.. cuz juz now nv buy anithing.. sian sian

examz~

haix... YEsterdae ar.. study poa till siao.. veri difficult leh..! need to call n call ask ppl.. den.. suddenly cannot contact qian ting.. den dunno how liao.. cuz her poa quite good also.. sian... Look at all my test papers all full marks de.. but then when i look at it again.. forgot how to do le.. why like this .. why like that... =( den com online discuss with wee koon.. ask him teach me.. he taking POA also ma.. den.. online till 12+ like that.. den go sleep le.. so many to study... dun even have time for maths.. ! haiz.. then cannot sleep... until 2+ den fell asleep.. in my dreams.. dream of POA also.. -.-" dreamt wee koon online .. test me poa qns.. den all i dunno how to do.. realli can feel brain wanna crack..! den 5am wake up le.. veri sleepy.. cannot open eyes.. den look at poa w/s lor.. den maths.. onli memorise the formulas... who knows... so difficult sia..! a lot of ppl cannot finish.. me.. on the dot finish.. but.. still dunno a lot of qns lar! everyone keep saying... prelim flunk liao lar.. work hard for O lvls can liao... haiz.. actually its quite true.. by wad we've been tested so far.. like all bu shun li one.. tt kind of juz pass or fail... haiz.. die.. dunno how to gen senior jiao dai about prelims results sia.. :S haiz... go study MT nw.. tata

slacking...=(

haiz.. todae.. dunno y... nv study much... tried to study le.. but stare at the book.. got study la i mean.. but a bit only.. cannot concentrate.. in the end study abit maths.. a bit geo .. n a bit POA... the least is POA .. todae.. toked to him in msn.. haiz.. dunno y he everytime tok.. den like... wan to quarrel like tt de.. and not interested.. haiz.. scared.. sad..

chou nan ren~!

[14th Sep 2004]

Today.. qi si qo ler.. si jian wei.. say want to teach me POA on Todae at first.. Then i dun wan ma.. cuz wanna study for ss on thursday.. then he sae nvm teach me ss.. but i dun feel like going.. then he's like..wanting me to go his house.. want to teach me ss.. but i told him i dun wan to go.. den later he angry.. den i say see first.. He kept asking whether i confirm going or not.. say he come school fetch me go.. but i told him not confirm liao.. then todae.. after practical i messaged him say dun wanna go his hse le.. den he so angry like that.. sae wad.. wait for mi so long... whole dae.. pontang lesson somemore.. den angry somemore.. say wanna delete my hp no. & msn contact.. wa lau.. siao.. attitude problem man.. i already told him i dun wish to go lor... and i nv ask him to wait for me.. is he is the one who wans me to go and pei him.. if not he sian.. den now i dun wan to go .. he so angry.. somemore i never ask him to wait for me n pontang his lesson lorx.. siao man... den want to fa pi qi with me.. and make me so angry.. den i tell him he has no rights to be angry with me lorx.. it is his fault wad.. so unreasonable.. wan to fa pi qi den fa pi qi.. xiao ding dong.. chou nan ren!

[15th sep 2004]

Today ar.. got eng prelim.. hmm.. ok la.. luckily the paper not so difficult.. comprehension passage can understand.. compo.. eh.. write until 653 words.. over limit liao..=X but onli 2 pages.. maybe handwriting small ba.. think teacher wun know la hor.. =p wrote bout stupid things.. cuz dunno wad to write ma.. den onli one qn can write in narrative form only.. so no choice lorx..

Lost ss TB!!!

haiz.. todae veri sway.. juz found out tt i can't find my ss tb..!! a few more daes exam lehx! haix.. trying hard to find ppl who can lend mi the book..haiz.. i juz saw it yst morning onli.. and brought it out to study..!!! could anione took my tb by mistake?? not april n yi da.. could it be qianting?? but she slept liao.. haiz.. so kan jiong.. cannot be ma.. cannot find lehx... aHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

wad to do.... jian wei has the tb.. ask mi now go n take.. but cannot go out now ma.. den tml whole dae he not free.... then think.. if realli cannot find den tues go his hse take liao.. no choice.. if not wo sui si dao hen nan kan de..!

and todae.. i dunno y i sae sry to him also.. i said.. den he reply..anithing.. anithing????? like dun care also...! haiz!!!! y did i bother to sae sry?

studies~~~

hey.. today's another study day again.. hmm.. intended to go TP library study today de.. with April,Qian ting , Yi da.. and.... Yu Xiang.. and pauline ar.. then cannot enter lib lehx.. need scan card.. =X den go to a bench in engeneering sch study ar.. haiz.. blog half way no mood to blog liao.. He say till.. i cannot miss him like that.. n.. some kind of scolding.. i got study ma.. no communication btw us? is u dun wanna tok to mi..! even if u have projs.. dun believe since so many days.. not even a minute of free time? u dun even know wad u have done which will hurt me so much.. and that's becuz i love u too much! A little bit of things means a lot to me... U dunno!!! .... ......... ...... ........ ....... ......... ......... .......... ........... .......*heartbroken*..... .... ....... ......... ...... . ....... . ......... .. .
sob sob..='(

slpy..~

Todae ar.. woke up at 7.45am like that.. had a bad dream.. dreamt of female ghost crushing my bone.. and i can feel the pain when i woke up.. pain sia... dunno y.. okay.. then eat breakfast liao .. bath.. then went out.. meet them go Tp lib study lorx.. we decided to sit seperately from one another so as not to end up chatting.. o ya.. then qianting got this friend in TP.. never meet before one.. but she say not net friend.. forgot how she know him worx...Then qianting juz told him that we were at the 5th floor of the library only ar.. he know which one is qianting liao.. so li hai.. nv meet before also know.. library so many ppl.. how he know is one of us ar.. maybe we are the only ones who dun look like poly students ba.. kekex.. we didn't even notice any suspect that maybe him.. den after that he sae he at 3rd floor le.. so we went to find out who is he and shun bian go for lunch after that... qian ting dun wanna call him.. so ended up i was the one who called.. hear his voice.. ok la.. like joker like that.. den ask him where is he .. he dun wan sae.. he sae he saw us somemore.. but we cannot find him.. hide himself.. then notice 3 guys.. there smiling.. den suspect.. den call again.. he pick up phone.. den know is which one liao.. haha.. okok looking la.. but like xiao didi.. haha..
then after that we went for lunch.. but dunno which canteen to go.. go business school de canteen .. see liao got kong ju gan.. so many ppl ar.. pai seh.. haha.. then after that go find Nicole(april's sis) first.. then we went to that canteen near the bookshop ar.. got 2 storey one.. den me,april and liu jing ate kway chap.. qianting ate prawn mee.. also like not much choice.. haha.. not bad la.. then bookshop buy sweet and drinks ar.. the went back to study liao.. study study till 3+ like that den veri sleepy le.. wanna slp.. but nv la.. study till.. 4 like tt ar.. liu jing say veri cold ar.. den we all go outside study lor.. go.. business school the bench there study.. feel so wierd sia.. so many students walking pass.. den they sae they look at us in a wierd way.. maybe we realli dun look like poly students ba.. plus we have our bio tb.. physic tb.. chem tb.. and even Chinese book in front of us!!!! LOLX.. feel so wierd.. haha.. actually wan study till 7+ de.. den sis called n sae tonight got to go "jia dok" .. so have to go back early la.. den saw wee koon lo..at 4+.. she going friend hse do pro.. then when i reach home 6.30 like that liao.. then 7.45 like that go down.. "jia dok" .. my family n wee koon family one table lo.. actaully jia yi also got go one.. but in the end nv.. cuz sae too tired.. den dun wan go.. hmm.. the food not nice de lor.. onli like the last dish.. haha.. veri unique.. to me la.. some sae not nice. cuz it's like the "mua ji" ar..powdery one.. with ice-cream inside..quite nice.. but some eat a bit den dun wan liao.. haha..
meimei went for audition to act the I'm Not Stupid 2.. queue for so long time... No. 440 lehx.. got 600++ ppl went.. audition fee $10 somemore.. like that then the company can earn $6000+++ liao lor.. veri clever hor.. earn so much.. in the end also not compulsory get in.. even if they think u can act also need to sign up for training couses ar.. dunno wad.. for $800++ for the training course.. not compulsory can act somemore.. even if they let u act one small role or wad.. also pay u a little ma.. not even until the amount u have paid for the training courses.. they so clever huh..

dunno

today hor.. 6am woke up liao... then 7am like that go school.. for Literate.. watch the tweth night movie.. but watch half way.. miss quek say go home.. sch reopen den continue.. but y? y not watch finish.. den so early go sch juz to watch the bit..-.-" then after that came home.. bath, eat and ready to meet qianting at the bus stop opp TP... went library study.. qian ting haben eat.. so go eat first.. dunno wad to buy.. anihow walk into the sch of IT ar.. anihow buy one char siew su and one spring roll ar.. ask me help her eat one of it somemore.. den go library.. den april and her sis and liu jing ard 3 den met us.. then 5.30 like that go off liaox.. so sian.. tml go again.. meet them 9.30am.. realli muz study a lot things liao.. so slack..

forgot to bring my calculator..-.-"

First say yesterday de... haiz.. slack.. study ss.. but memorise so much liao.. like todae den forgot again.. haiz.. den felt that i study a bit onli la.. sianx.. then mama at wee koon hse play majiong.. say there dark dark .. later at night go home alone very scary.. so i accompany her go home lorx.. met jia yi and ming hui for dinner.. ate Genki Sushi.. $40++ .. then go walk walk a bit then go wee koon hse lerx.. by the time already 9+pm liao ba.. then suddenly relise.. the nxt dae got Maths test!!! Forgot bout it sia.. haben practice.. then so late then can go home.. haix... den remind myself to rmb to bring calculator, mathematical set and curve rule.. but ....
This morning i fount out that i forgot to bring calculator!!! haha.. den faster borrow from Mr Ang.. still say what 10 cents for 10 mins sia.. haha.. but of cuz nv la.. wah.. den a few qns dunno how to do lehx.. cham liao la.. then after that we got class outing.. go watch movie.. Mrs Danial's treat.. haha... watched Anacondas.. haha.. Nice show man.. kanna scared by one of the part.. haha.. azimah beside me bigger reaction.. jump a bit.. lolx.. then after the movie.. me,yan ling,qian ting,gareth and azimah went arcade.. but azimah left shortly after.. so left the 4 of us.. Azimah,qianting,yan ling and me played Daytona.. lost to Yanling.. got 2nd.. actually first de..bu fu qi.. haha.. den played the wad ar.. hockey ar.. the table one.. play till now my hand going blue black liao.. pain sia.. then later we food court.. gareth and Yanling ate.. me n qianting ate ice cream onli.. den later go walk a bit.. den go into the M1 shop see the phone i like... sony ericson k700i.. cool man.. den later when walk out of the shop.. then.. "may i help you?" my biao ge lehx.. ! haha.. He didn't recognise me at first.. haha.. but heng he recognised me.. he has change liao.. his face.. turn so cute.. esp when he laugh.. haha.. now studying in TP ba.. forgot ask wad course he's taking.. last time small always meet cousins every weekend de.. but now leh.. once a year..=( and hardly talk one... so.. not good sia.. haiz..
then after that come back home le lorx.. den eat dinner.. watch 1 hr TV.. den go do maths practice paper given todae.. but .. did a few qns onli fall asleep liao.. bua ta han.. too tired.. yesterdae 2am den fall asleep.. cuz stupid sister sae veri cold.. dun wanna on the air-con.. make me so hot.. cannot sleep..slp liao also not comfortable.. den 6am have to wake up for sch liao.. tts y so tired.. but i realli feel like blogging.. so i slpy also come online to blog.. haha..

Todae saw someone at interchange look like him a lot .. but dun think is him la.. den suddenly miss him alot again.. haiz.. think he dun like me le... if he like me den he wun like tt de... can feel.. by the way he reply me sms.. like dun care like tt.. like feel tt i veri fan like tt.. haiz.. sad.........

Tml go TP Library study again.. after going to sch to watch the movie on Twelth Night.. go home .. change den go out again.. no choice.. must force myself to study.. realli dun think want to go Poly lehx.. cuz dun realli like the life in Poly.. like so disorganise.. and got so mani projects..
JC is more organised.. but scared A lvls.. the most Difficult examinations among all the major exams lehX.. but i dun think i can make it to JC also.. haiz..dunno..
-__________________________-

pissed off~

haiz.. bad day.. today ar.. morning liu jing called.. sae wan come my hse.. den ater ask mi go library.. but she 1pm need to go liao.. den ok lor.. i go study literature.. den later call april.. ask her come library with us.. but she sae she's in Tp.. in the end ask mi go there.. den after 1pm liao.. i went home.. eat.. and come out again.. buy food for april..go TP library study..saw wei lin.. do maths.. haiz.. end up chatting n smsing.. until 5.. her sis's class finish.. go meet her.. sat at the bench there.. for 1 hr.. den go with them to the lecture.. cuz aniway.. got to go pinwen hse at 7.30.. the lecture end at 7 ma.. is.. social psychology.. nv listen.. wasted my time there.. haiz.. is bcoz a guy call marcus go so they wan to go de.. so after that i going to pinwen hse.. but dunno how to go ma.. den later pinwen sae he dunno we going his hse do pro.. den yong min on the other side say they already set the time yesterday..-.-" den pinwen not at home.. outside.. den sae onli available after 8.. den i 8.30 got to go home liao.. but nvm.. den think the both of them also annoyed with each other.. den.. everybody not happy.. so early.. also dunno where to go.. somemore realise that suman not going..-.-" if i know she not going den i also duno go liao.. den actually took 69 back to interchange de.. but den think again.. maybe can meet 'him' .. so drop off at the stop near sch main gate de..dunno y.. irritated.. and veri hot.. den slowly walk.. ask 'him' can meet not.. but he sae bz with pro.. haiz.. miss him... when he sae cannot meet .. even more sad.. haiz.. and think tts a rare chance i got time to meet him.. but he no time.. =( wait for yong min at tt bus stop lo.. haiz.. den reach pinwen hse liao but he not home yet.. by then already 8.13 liao he haben come back.. den think.. even if he come back le , i onli can go in 15 mins like tt onli can do wad.. so i went home after tt le.. haben eat.. haiz.. hungry hungry..den poa and maths haben do.. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dunno how to do POA la... haiz.. damn sad... onli started chem and lit revision.. i'm so slow... stupid me!

Btw, i hate myself..! i was so annoyed while going home.. in the bus.. i got my seat.. and did not stop at the interchange.. den another group of ppl coming up the bus wad... beside mi was an old man.... and i didn't realise it until i was stopping at my stop!!!!!!!!!!... i should have gave up my seat to him ...!!!!! argh!!!! i was thinking n thinking .. until i didn't realise an old man standing next to me...='( I was so bad... haiz.... damn sad la..... sad ...