Fear, Lost, Hurt, Touched, Tired

Yesterday was the announcement on the FYP grouping.. immediately after Mrs Gan had announced it, everyone was discussing who to group with.. i mean it is "across the whole cohort" thingy.. must have mix gender, mix nationality and mix GPA result... so it was rather diff.. somemore didnt know much guys in my course.. and dun realli wanna taKe Cong Xin in in my group.. Very bad ya? but they say FYP must be cruel.. haiz.. so at first it's me, rash, yani, maybe Zi yan.. and one or 2 guy.. but Rash go join Din's grp.. den left me, yani and maybe zi yan.. cant find other peep.. dunno them as well.. i mean the guys.. max onli can have 2 guys btw..
I also didnt know why i was with Wendy and Nushra that grp of gers after lec yst.. so.. they were like.. sort of stress on who to grp with as well.. we sat there for liKe.. 1 and a half hr feeling stressed and discussing on the grping.. So luan.. haha.. i was not stressd in the beginning.. but seeing wendy so stressed up makes me feel the same way too.. but ended up Me and Yani group with Alfi, Kenneth and Doreen.. i only know Doreen.. but it was a relief to secure a group..
Proceeded to Bedok find mummy before work .. ask her help me alter my pants.. sway sway Jennifer come.. den make me wait so long cuz she briefing them on the stock taKe.. den me waiting for lunch tgt with mummy.. Mdm help me sew the pants.. had KFC.. ahh.. fats.. -__-
Went to work after that.. i still went.. cuz before that i called Bird and ask if i could skip work.. cuz realli no mood to work because of the stress.. haiz.. but i still went la.. so many afternoons.. -___- mi and Chai siong 6/10.. can dun go one lor.. -___- and that stupid chai siong.. so ungentlemen! si Kolar Bear.. lol.. still wan me intro ger to him.. who wants him lor.. dun even look like 19 yrs old.. =X =P..

Chai Siong's helmet.. xD

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TIRED.. every wed is tired.. Got my results.. cao Errrr de..
QM - 36.5/50
MM - 31/50
BChem - 31.5/40
Transport - 27/50
LOMe - ???

Cao er xin rite??? LOMe i think a lot ppl did badly.. cher say must moderate the passing marks den return us next week.. haiz..

STRESS... FYP group how??? DEEP SHIT!

PSP!

Yoz.. thought of blogging before going to school for project.. hehe..

Guess wad?! I just got myself half a PSP yesterday.. never thought of having one.. but it just came.. lol..

Went Sim lim sq with John to source for PSP.. haha.. shared with him.. the process getting info bout it maKes me wanna get one too.. hahaha.. heard from Jenson say sim lim can get cheaper price @ $260.. so we went to try.. realli have.. was a lil confused after hearing so much about the diff versions of PSP.. but we decided not to care and get the cheapest ($260) one..ver 3.4oea.. black.. Japan ver.. add mem card, UMD, screen protector amounted to $420.. !!!! Shit.. haha.. but nvm.. happy jiu hao... ^_^ The most try to save from today onwards! LOL..


The PSP! =D

Had pasta after that.. his treat! =p

Carteled on Sat with Cg..

Oh no..! see how i spend my $$$.. T.T
Btw, help to vote for Pinwen! http://u.mediacorptv.com/hey/ lol..

zZz

Zzzz~ So tired..-.-zZZ..

9am proj today.. after tt bs.. and go walk walk a while.. tts all..

Worked yst.. got to know more about the new philipine staff call.. Lysander.. a father of one.. a funny guy.. who cooks very well.. and knows how to lie... zZz..
He dun believe my age.. he say i look like 13..=.= .. and one of the customer yst said that too.. i know to some ppl i look like sec sch.. but.. 13?? isnt it too Kua Zhang? lol..
Know a staff call cai siong also .. relief de.. for 2 weeks.. he stay in tampines and rides bike.. how i wish he can send me home some day.. LOL! which i guess.. he wun la.. lolx.. juz wan to get on a biKe! haha

BoRiNg~

How bored can this day be? Almost rotted.. I played my PS2.. found a game i can commit to.. and it's non other than Over The Hedge! Lol.. It's fun.. at least to me.. at least wun get stucked like other games dunno wad to do next.. at least i manage to complete each mission.. haha..

Eyes quite pain now.. this whole day used com, played PS, watched TV.. now can only look at keyboard..

Learn abit of Piano from sis.. rather tiring! lol.. trying hard to read and play the beansprouts.. hahahhaha..

Just heard from Wendy tt our proj like do wrong.. hai.. sians.. meeting up on Wed again to maKe changes.. Tml working afternoon.. Lao gong off day.. sian.. got to work with Yk till closing.. Kids season change suppose to be tml but postponed to 28th.. heng.. =x

anyway, yst got a lady customer.. dunno y she wear the same design pants but diff colour.. but the alteration length diff.. i keep measuring over and over again as she keep changing and changing.. she also find it wierd.. but i suspect is the waist level that she wear the pants keep changing.. very scared sia.. if too short i have to pay.. furthermore i forgot to let her sign on the alteration form.. Nooooooo!

Hey u

First of all, let me hereby wish all the fathers a Happy Fathers' Day!
Didnt get to celebrate though.. Cuz guess.. sis and bro not free.. Haven seen my dad today.. and mama.. at aunt's place.. now only meimei and me at home.. *yawn*

So What's abt yesterday? Went to church early in the morning at 10am to help to set up atttributes bookstore.. Quite fun.. haha.. and all the books are REALLY CHEAP! They are at super good prices.. Those on promotions for the GSS were categorised into 3 prices - The $4.90, $9.90 and $19.90... Arent they CHEAP??? Let me tell u book readers, they are definitely good grabs! Regular prices are prices anything above $30 and are selling at only $19.90.. Too bad im not a book reader.. Was thinking whether to get one of the famous book call "Moving in the Holy Spirit" if im not wrong.. by Phil Pringles.. It's only at $9.90.. but im scared i will not read.. Maybe i can bless others? We shall see next week.. But i guess it will most prob be sold out by next week..! haha..

Eh, ya.. why i fun it fun yesterday? I guess cuz i got to make some friends in attributes and they are really nice and fun to be with.. and maybe becuz they are new like me! Aha! So many names to remember.. hope i still can call out their names when i meet them next week or so.. and we actually played 2 games before briefing.. "Me too!" and "Vroom!" .. Hahaha.. 2 new games to me.. Me too is something liKe "da feng chui" and "Vroom!" a game related to car.. Got chance teach u all next time! =D

Oh ya.. and finally, i got to see who Wei Shan is.. He is one of the team leader who had been helping Jie Kai to contact me when Jie Kai was in camp.. i think nearly 1 month that we had been smsing a little.. finally got to see our real person yesterday.. haha.. and one of the attributes staff, i had always think he looks very much like Wang Dong Cheng.. lol.. the hairstyle, dressing, smile.. Lmao..And one of the member, Jonah.. a sec 3 boy..He seems to have endless Ed Hardy Tee..! Every week i see him wear different colours and design.. Bless me some! lol..

So Ben replied me yst that he can make it for today's service.. so i was like.. ok tts gd!.. so i smsed Feng Ling that im bringing a friend.. and she said she's bringing a friend too.. But.. felt a bit guilty that can't help up after service.. =x.. so told Jie Kai.. he say its ok.. but i guess.. shld be ok leh.. yst quite a lot ppl.. Eric still say he dun wan serve after service.. i ask him y.. he say juz dun wan lor..=.= got like that one meh... -.- Btw, nearly left my wallet valued over hundred dollars in the washroom!!! Luckily i thought of it and went back to taKe in time! haha.. =x

So, adnormally, there seems to be an increased in number of cgm who sat tgt for service yesterday.. Mainly for the BIG news that Feng Ling was going to anounce.. We all thought that most prob abt Cg reshufflements within the zone or something.. and was hoping it will not affect us.. but to our "horror", that BIG news is that she's getting married! and introduced her husband to be, who is the friend she brought.. and he's from Korea! Oh my.. lol.. Shocked and speechless and stunned for a moment.. for a moment, i thought i had problem with my hearing.. Shocked shocked shocked.. cuz we didn't know she got a bf.. haha.. we got excited after that and started discussing and it sort of became topic of the day.. It was realli BIG news.. haha.. anyway, im really happy for her as well! ^_^

Last night i miss him badly when i was home.. i cant help it but miss him juz that much and there's nothing i can do as well.. felt sad when i thought of him.. had some difficulty in falling aslp and the first think i woke up, i thought of him again.. its a rather automatic thing.. after i brushed my teeth, rested on the sofa, fell aslp, i dreamt of him.. from my hse to work all the way, i thinking and day dreaming abt him again.. This is bad and feels terrible.. This whole process has rather pulled my mood down for the whole day.. makes me feel no energy or "heart" to work.. serving customers unsincerely with a faKe smile..

Worked morning today with Bird, Wen Qian and Hartini... Btw, Wen Qian has been permernantly transferred to 832 liaoz.. felt so lazy in the morning.. many pants to cut and transfers to clear.. trying had not to let my emotions affect my work and to remember all the promotions going on in the shop.. i have to admit that i cant feel my passion in workplace today.. or is the passion fading? im not as enthusiastic in sales as before.. maybe is the thought of quitting.. Anyway, heard YK is going to be transferred to Ang Mo Kio.. i shld be happy.. ya.. i expressed it.. but actually in my heart.. i felt its nothing actually.. wun affect me much.. and heard that Celine from Hougang is coming over..

Haiz.. although customers is always right, but it doesnt mean that the salesgirl must be in wrong.. agree ma? There this 2 customers today.. chinese and Indian while im doing Cashier..

* Chinese customer come to cashier..
Min: Hi gd afternoon :) *Folds the black pants she's purchasing*
Chinese: Do u have other colours?
Min: Yup, Khaki colour
Chinese: Can you show me?
Min: *sees there's long queue* BERRRRRRRRRNAARRRRRRRRRDDD! This one Khaki colour L size thank u!

*Indian customer comes beside counter and puts her item on counter table and stand real close as if cutting queue*

Chinese: Aiyo.. Y so rude ah.. stand so near to me..i came first leh.. so rude(in chinese)
Min: :) *dun dare to do the payment for the indian while waiting for Bernard..
Chinese: Hello can u pls stay away? u are disrupting me! (says to indian)
*Bernard says khaki out of stock*
Min: continues payment of black pants

Conver goes on btw chinese and indian*
Indian: Y must i? i am not disrupting u! i can stand here!(angry)
Chinese: Yes who do you think you are to let mi listen to u..can u stand aside?(angry)

* Chinese starts talking to me..
Chinese: So rude.. Parent never teach ar.. Bastard! Humph! (in chinese)
Me: :)

*payment finished, chinese customer went off..*
Indian: wad kind of ppl is this?! and why do u stand there like a fool and dun even try to handle that your customer(the chinese)?!
Min: -_________________________- *im innocent pls!
*continues with payment*

*END*

Hello......... i cant possibly stand one either side ritght.. imagine i asked u(indian) to not to stand that close to that chinese customer making her feel uncomfortable, how would u(indian) feel? and what if i initiate to do you(indian) payment first, how will the chinese customer feel since she emphasized that she was in the queue first.. of cuz in order to save myself from receiving any complaints, i chose to keep quiet right.. furthermore i feel that both are difficult customers.. the chinese is too chidish.. imagine she really scolded (Wang Ba Dan and "Humph" really like a child).. make me dunno wan to laught or wad.. it's rather Diao~-.- and that indian attitude sux too.. fancy saying me like a fool.. what the hell.. u are not in my position.. of cuz u wun noe.. furthermore i dun think u even care..

i always believe that there are 2 kinds of indians.. It's either they are extremely good or very choosy and nasty..

I guess just her luck and mine that my heart was somehow or rather not at work today.. i realli tired and numbed to quarrel with her.. if not, i guess Bossini gets another complain.. lolx.. anyway, i really think the management sux.. i juz read the most recent Complaints and compliments this morning when i came to work.. found a copy at the notice board.. There are so many complaints.. and i despise the way the management handle it.. in whatever case, our staff always dun have their rights.. although it is said that customers always come first.. but certain things.. is really obviously the customer fault and is clear cut that our staff and ICs are doing what the company teaches us to do.. I dont see the reason y because of 1 either small or regular customer, u treat ur staff this manner and decreases their morale.. is it realli worth it althogh it is said that customers are the main drivers in a business?..Im much disappointed..

Lonely evening..

What a lonely evening.. Felt so "no friends" all of a sudden when i find no one to have a meal with... called John.. he having dinner with friend.. called Xuemei.. shopping with sisters.. called Leonard.. still working at Novena... called Jorine.. having kick boxing.. noe Joyce dinnering with friends also.. haiz.. actually my friends are still quite limited.. lolx.. Ah ya, should have tried calling Melvin as well.. or Hazel.. but.. nvm.. i came home in the end.. den saw miss call from Leonard.. guess he wanted to meet.. but too bad i at home liao la.. dun feel like going out le.. sianz.. Aiyah.. all that Raymond's fault... forever the same.. cant stand him.. nth said out of his mouth is true or promising.. =.= sian diao..

I was quite amazed or.. stunned to know that on of my ex is actually getting married soon! LMAO.. OmgwtbbbQqqq... lolx.. hahhahahhhahahhahahahhahhahahahahaha... My God... Wonder who's that 'lucky girl' ... =X Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.. YuCkS......CaO eRrRrRrr....
lolx...! ok la... dun so bad.. BUT SO FUNNY! LOLS!!! =PpP

QM project is ALMOST done after today's meeting.. decided to taKe a day off project.. and slack tonight.. Back to my PS2 and RE4.. Hai.. dun wan wait for him to play for me le.. dunno wait till when.. go find the walkthrough later and solve it myself..

Tired

Yoz.. Have been going to school everyday this week.. Kinda tired.. Sick of projects.. 3 projs this sem.. realli struggling.. Finishing QM.. LOMe started a bit and Bio-Chem not touched!

Going back to work this Fri morning.. sians.. i dun feel likE.. but.. how to live without income?

2nd unknown person smsed mi to be friend...=.= Found out who is it who gave my number away.. Zhen Wu Liao...=.=

Ppl canot enter my blog... haiz.. change it for the time being..

Heyz

Heys.. sry was too stressed this morning.. haiz.. anyway, let me blog about wad happened yesterday.. Met my Sec sch gang out to orchard .. Kboxed again.. haha.. actually nth much.. here's some photos..

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SHIT LA........... IM SO STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!

I FELT A KNOT IN MY HEART

DUNNO HOW TO UNTIE IT

PROJECTS ARE LIKE SHIT

THERES NO ONE ..NO ONE THERE TO HELP

NO ONE WILL KNOW

NO ONE WILL CARE

LIFE IS SO SHITTY NOW

DUN FEEL LIKE STUDYING ANYMORE

DUN FEEL LIKE CARING ANYMORE

DUN FEEL LIKE WORKING

JUZ LEAVE ME ALONE! BY ME AND MYSELF

Jealoussssssssssss

JealousJealous.. Full of Jealousness............ 好辛苦啊！怎么爱一个人这么难呢？I realise i haven forget him.. Its not that i dun wanna forget but i CANT! REALLI CANT.. wad to do? i thought i had forgotten but he's still the one i care most.. but today, something happened which just tells me that it's not that easy as i thought! I've at least controlled myself not to sms him.. but am feeling terrible! I know my friends will juz ask mi to forget abt him.. but it's easier said than done.. It's like.. how to say... The feeling i have for him is realli deep i guess.. imagine.. the things i will or can do for him.. is like.. to think of it, im not able to treat the other guy this gd..haiz.. i dunno... i dunno how cum will like that.. felt terrible to keep the feelings all inside.. wan to cry but cant cry at hm de feeling.. realli terrible.. but knowing that how he feels towards me or would he even do anything after he knows how i felt leaves me no point in contacting him.. furthermore, i guess he's happy with wad he is now.. got close friend.. to hang out with and to chat.. well.. den.. i shall not interupt? i dun wan contact him also cuz i dun wanna him to think that im.. wadeva kind of person.. cuz i said i wun wait for him.. but although i said that, i did told him i still love him but its juz tat i nv deliverately wait.. but tt time i dunno whether he gt taKe note of tis point.. or maybe it doesnt even matter to him ..
I noe my gers..esp xm ,joyce and maybe lj.. will be sort of.. angry if i say i haven forgot him.. but wan u all to know that i tried my best but i realli cant do it.. so many years.. and the many years of love and trust has grown btw us.. or shall i say in my point of view.. yupyup..
If only there is one broad shoulder for me to lean on and cry now..

无论发生什么事，还是必须撑下去。。=‘（

Emo Day?

Mug No More!

Firstly, i wanna announce that i've finish my last paper! Yay~! But the chance of passing is like..50%? lols.. Open book somemore.. Ops..=X But never care so much cuz its the last paper! hehe.. =P Supposedly meetin the girls to go far east shopping... But in the end ended up in Sakae Sushi!!! Noe y? Cuz XueMei was late for 2 hours!!! Told her 1pm and she reached at 3.15pm!!! Horrible creature! Actually suppose to meet at 2pm la.. cuz we know she will be late..so told her meet 1 hr earlier.. who knows............. Haiz.. GIVE UP! In the end no time to go town cuz still got to meet Hazel 5 plus at Tampines after her school.. so we spent our time in Sakae.. haiz... Buffeted.. Fei Si Le!!! Sinful..

After that we arcaded before going Aranda K.. So funny la.. we wanted to play the bb.. but found it faulty after we tapped the card la.. the machine dun work.. But it ate the Money for 2 games.. so go find the person.. Den the person gave us back 2 games on the other 2 machines la.. and we found that the credit in 1 of the machine Keep increase non stop.. 30,40,80,100... so on and on.. and we were laughing like.. lol.. free so many games.. haha.. 2 bucks for so many games.. but we left shortly after cuz alrdy book the room at 7pm..

It was an emo night? all the songs sang today are all sadsad de.. but highed at the very end still.. haha.. Thx for today gers! laughters always when with u all.. esp juz nw at Sakae.. Bth.. always laugh till bth with Amy's imaginations..

Unexpectedly easy!

cool.. Had my Bio-Chem paper at 3pm.. it was unexpectedly easy.. I was flippling through and reading the qns during the 10 mins reading time and was so happy.. cuz it was damn easy la.. haha.. easier than tutorial questions.. i guess everyone else finds it easy as today alot ppl left the room early.. haha.. I was so stress the night before as i felt that i didnt study much and there isnt realli much to study but Yani was telling mi that there's so much to study.. She did freaked me out.. haha.. but luckily, the little contents that i've studied are applicable in the test.. haha..

Was thinking of staying back after the test with Yani to study LOMe tgt.. actually before the test, i've roughly looked through Lec 1 to 4 alrdy.. and was left with the last chap which i had problem.. so was thinking to figure it out in sch..but in the end, cuz Jolene and Charissa joined us.. and they had problems with certain lecs... so ended up teaching them.. lol..

>.<

ahhh.. ive finish studying for Bio-Chem paper later at 3pm.. but.. not at ease! .. haha.. cuz liKe.. nth much to memorize.. am i slacking?
Well, gonna start studying LOMe soon after i finish blogging.. so that i can go for cell grp later in the evening and go blading with the gers tml! =p
Btw, i saw this blog web in newspaper yesterday and thought it was really good.. u may wan to take a look --> http://stickgal.blogspot.com
Stickgal uses her drawings to express her feelings.. impressive!

Anyway, what happen to taxi drivers nowadays? They are so damn rude okay.. Jo and me took a cab to sch cuz dunno y the bus driver didnt stop although we hailed and the bus is not full.. and i was liKe askIng the uncle to stop at the TP bus stop.. den he was liKe... giving some kind of look and dunno saying wad.. y stop here.. where got ppl stop here one or something like that.. i was quite ..-_-" he was very rude la.. and the fare was $4.40.. so i said uncle i give u 40 cents.. He ignored and juz gave me the change! what kind of attitude and service..?

Another case is that night when me and John took cab down to Bedok to meet ex cgm for Grace's bdae.. so i hailed and cab down to John's place first.. i was liKe teling the uncle the add.. ok.. den when reaching, he ask me whether is it time to turn.. and i was like.. i dunno.. den he say.." You mei you gao cuo? Zi ji zu na li dou bu zhi dao?" in a very pissed tone.. and adds on that he's not familiar with the road in east side and hates finding road.. i was stunned.. after he reach, i was thinking.. this kind of ppl, got money also dun wan let him earn! So i wanted to pay him and alight..but he dun listen and keep asking where to go after that! and i insist i wan to get off.. but u noe wad.. i only got one $50 note and he say he got no change.. WTH.. so i ask John.. den he also dun have.. and the taxi driver drive us to ATM machine to draw! and he say " Chu men lian san qian dou mei you" -.-" grrr... Isnt he the one suppose to have small change???

The only thing i regret is that i never thought of taking down the names, and the carplate number of the taxis! haha..

heyhey

Yoz.. came to relax abit.. was so stressed up cuz cant get QM into my mind!!! QM paper gonna be on Wed.. Today's transport was ok.. except that last Qn which consist of 1O marks.. dunno how to do.. its ok calculation.. until now cant find anyone who can do it.. haha.. apoint 50 marks, 10 marks juz gone like that... argh.. haha.. nvm.. at least got try.. maybe get some marks here and there.. Tml MM's more on calculation on MPS and MRP.. Cher promised the calculation gonna drive us mad.. evil Mrs Gan.. arghh.. Quality's so chim.. dunno wad is it talking about.. wad ISO 9000 blabla.. wadeva! haha.. haben even touch Bio chem and LOMe! LookIng forward to Fri! Gonna meet my sec sch friends on Sun.. yay~