is this heartbreak for true love?

omg.. This feeling is terrible.. ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH....... Wad else can i sae..
Am i realli in love with him that i affected me that much? I dun think sooooo.. It's not the love or not love part i guess?

hate the part where guys can say as much sweet words as they like when they were interested in u... but uses excuses like think im nt good enuff for u... think our character dun suit.. or i dun wanna waste ur time.. when they wanna leave u..

i mean it's like.. he realli moved my heart..thot he will be diff..no doubt he's a gd catch.. but afterall, he's still the same as other guys.. as in the reasons he gave.. they are like.. drama lines already..

alright now to think of it over again.. maybe wad he said is true.. but on the other hand, there's also not much or enuff time for us.. and .. he and his basketball.. enuff to fill his time.. was thinking m i wrong to ask him to work.. now tt hes tired everyday n.. u noe.. hai.. forget it la..

i feel better now.. felt so terrible juz now.. crying in out in my heart.. yet cant let my tears flow.. as my family members are all at home.. sometimes i dun like having big family is becuz i cant have my own space.. Luckily that love wasnt deep.. guess it will heal in a day or 2.. furthermore.. dun wish this to affect my mood in studying for mid sem nxt week..

anyway, thx to the peep who are concern.. im fine.. =)

KILL mE PLs!

Kill Me Pls!!!! Wanna vomit blood......... argghhghhghhhhh.. idiot! Spoil my day..
There's this online guy.. also dunno y in my msn de.. quite sometime ago.. chatted and exchanged num.. sometimes he will call n ask wanna go out or not.. and i rejected everytime.. cuz sometimes realli long nc chat on msn le.. and we nv chat on phone de.. and he everytime call juz to ask mi out ..of cuz i wun meet him rite.. those times are ok..i still treat him as any other normal friends ar.. until today.. wow.. i can tell u he is realli super duper ridiculous..

He came to sae Hi to me in msn.. so i was like.. hi-ing back la.. and he was asking if i nv ho church today.. i was likE.. ya but later.. wanna join me.. i mean.. juz a casual question.. den he ask a lot of.. wadeva ruBbish.. like.. wad wan dinner alone with mi only but not my cgm.. of cuz i will say no la.. liKe dun even noe wad kind of person he is.. furthermore .. the more he say.. the more he sound to me more despo and ridiculous... i was liKe.. fine.. im juz maKing a casual remark of asking if u wanna join me since u are free.. i merely askEd one qn alrite..
After i rejected him all those things.. he was like sayin im trying to pull him to church.. wad the .. la.. i was liKe.. vomit blood..

fine la.. after church he was liKe asking mi to meet tml.. i was like telling him im not free.. over the phone juz now la.. den he was saying im rejecting him.. its liKe realli.. dots la.. Keep saying.. wad.. if gt chance to be tgt.. blabla..although i told him i got no intentions of.. u noe wad.. He keep saying he understand.. but he kept going back to the same point.. =.= *vomit blood* He keep maligning mi, dun give mi a chance to talk.. when i say my point, he claims he understand.. when he dun even do! *vomit blood!* TOTAL RIDICULE! He's talking as if a couple is quarelling alrite.. i think he's mad! lolx.. in the end i bua ta han and hung up his call.. LOL..

His attitude is totally like my ex la.. so bua ta han.. dun listen and dun give ppl a chance to talk.. most irritating thing is he actually sound likE my ex ok.. AND.. they are both 3 years older than me.. no wonder ppl say u cant have a partner who is older than u in age multiple of 3! *Vomits blood!*

Happy bdae

Ended lesson at 6pm.. met Puppy and Xm @ mushroom go MS celebrate Kelvin and puppy de birthday tgt... Supposed to go for the attributes orientation but they last min say wan celebrate on Tues! as a result, nv go for orientation.. perhaps the next round.. haha.. dunno suzzana will question me on sat not.. Ops..=x we were suppose to meet 7pm @ city hall ctrl station.. but Queenie, Xm, puppy n me were late cuz we went bugis buy a bag from espirit for puppy.. haha.. so rush n last min.. =P act i feel we shldnt have bought that.. cuz.. puppy.. dun need it.. but Mummy.. ermm.. well.. juz let her buy.. dun dare say anything.. in the end we met them 8pm @ MS.. queenie sis came along cuz she juz knock off from Bugis.. Kelvin told me tt Ah seng, Wen Qian, Jennifer, Lai, will be going for the tampines staff and it turn out to be so different lor.. Only Wen Qian turn up + her friend, Nana, n Natasha.. Mummy de face totally turn black once she learned that natasha got come lo.. and didnt join us and walk away with ah yi go eat themselves.. and they juz tell kel they go toilet.. hmm.. we feel.. its not very nice la.. make kel in a diff situation.. actually kel also noe mummy dun like her.. but in the first place Kel didnt invite her at all.. she juz came along with wen qian they all.. but anyway, mummy shld juz stay.. no matter wad, the purpose is to celebrate Kel's bdae.. hai.. in the end we dined at Swensens la.. cuz got 2 malay.. need eat halal.. den ok lo..Kel was so funny.. he ordered fish n chips.. and he dunno how to see if it's fish n chips..his first time in swensens.. and puppy was like.. nearly falling slp while having his fish n chips.. =.= after mi n Xm finish our meal we rushed to but caKes for the 2 bdae boys.. den the tamp ppl were like not veri happy with us.. like.. they were afraid that the cakes from outside cannot be eaten in swensens.. they afraid get scolded.. n we were like thinking.. wun la.. cuz we already spent $100 over dollars eating their meals... and after the bdae songs.. dunno y la.. Natasha and nana dunno wispering wad also.. carry their bag go bill.. ask them go where.. they say maKe call.. later sae go toilet.. den all the other gers carried their bag and went tgt.. they say will be back but no lor.. like.. so shitty lah.. den left me,xm,puppy n kel.. after that den go out meet mummy n ah yi.. go pool n arcade a while..






see my puppy's si yu lian.. like forcing him to eat the caKe liKe that..






Spent ard $80 yst.. argh... This cant go on.. i still promise my dad to buy him 2 shirts.. =.= can cry.. how ar.. hmm.. somemore.. i realli think of quitting my job.. For the time being work 2or 3 days a week nia.. haiz..SIP coming soon.. dun wanna face the fact! Hope can get east area de.. Projs are irritating!

sian

haiz.. sian.. so bored.. suay today.. my alarm clock didnt ring cuz the batt went dead and had bad headache.. supposed to work today.. but.. ya.. in the didnt go.. yk asked mi to cab dwn.. but i realli dun feel liKe going to work.. veri headache.. and her attitude is really like.. sux.. hung up the phone juz like that.. its not as if i purposely dun wanna work.. im realli having bad headache alright.. recently always suddenly sick for 1 day.. also dunno wad happen.. i realli cant stand yk de attitude lor.. think im quitting le.. hai.. nvm..

No school..

Nv go sch today.. cramps lahhh!!! =( ehh.. i think i've lost interesting in blogging.. everytime come to this pg jiu dunno wad to write.. haha.. hmm.. went to Ming hui's bdae chalet on sat.. reached only at 9pm.. cuz svc ended late.. met biao jie first n go tgt..

Jia Yi, Jun, Min, Hui

Den sun met jun and go for family dinner tgt after my work.. celebrated mother's day at Bedok 600+ there...

Kelvin Khor.. Ke ai ma? Im still doubting his age.. 23??? hmmm..o.0

Love my phone!

Whahaha.. i love my HP! Fell sick on Sun.. got running nose the whole morning..didnt go to work but an opportunity to buy new HP! whahaha.. =p So bought my SonyErricson K800i which i long wished.. hehehe.. Wasnt so happy at first.. until today.. cuz i juz dl a lot of cute themes from the web! lolx.. i didnt trade in my old phone which worth $100 cuz i forgot to bring the charger! but nvm la.. till now i haven finish copying all the contacts.. cuz my old phone dun even have the capability to copy the contacts to my SIM card! so lousy! Recently my teachers keep saying about the New phone, any fault can bring back for exchange in 8 days rite.. so he always test the phone to the fullest.. so not chi kui.. lols.. den i follow him lor.. test out everything .. in the end really faulty! went back to the customer svc centre 2 times..-.- the first phone i got was faulty.. so exchanged for a new one.. till now still ok.. ahh.. think these 2 days i spent about $300 plus.. ops.. lucky mum and dad willing to sponsor $100 each for the phone.. hahaha.. ops.. =x Last time i wished for a Camera and this K800i.. now i got both! =D

Freddie!

Here to blog again.. Eceryday was damn tired.. Yesterday went to UOB Centre to find Chloe "ah yi" after school to purchase Goldlion belt for dad.. cuz his belt spoilt le den nv go buy new one.. and he's using Ribbon as belt!!! lmao la.. Green ribbon somemore.. and he dun mind cuz the shirt covered it..=.= funny la.. so i better buy him one fast! Chose one for him.. still ex after disc.. =.= but nvm.. jiujiu yi ci.. haha.. met my biao jie after that at MS to buy Ming Hui's bdae present.. Had a hard time looking for present as we are not very close to her den dunno wad to buy.. shang nao jing.. Guess wad? i saw Freddie Tan!!! Was delighted when i saw him.. juz chatted recently on msn nia.. sae hope to see him soon.. den met him yst.. cuz he was working.. i did thought of him.. but thought he told me he was transferred to Hougang mall.. but nw he say kenna transfer back to MS le.. argh.. den mi bought 1 bag from him ..Staff purchase only 10% leh.. =( and he's as lame as ever.. had dinner tgt with cousin at CA.. had the same thing as usual again.. yummy.. Was suprise that in the end my cousin didnt bought anything although she see so many things.. a bit not like her.. hmm.. haha.. opx..=x den finally we bought something for Ming hui.. better settle fast.. if not.. next week whole week not free.. Mon - movie after sch, Tues - work @ Bedok, Wed - BS, Thu - Work, Fri - CG, Sat - ming hu's bdae chalet le.. think rush there after service bahs..

Today Morning to 2.. hao lei.. Bird treat KFC.. hai.. actually treat PT enough de lor.. no need so good one.. hai.. see la.. that YK juz told me like 1 hr ago ask mi tml work afternoon shift.. she everytime last min one leh.. say tml no one do closing.. wad de la.. If Bernard can handle 826 and 832 closing alone becuz of 2 newbies, why can't she? somemore is only do 832 closing wad.. grrr.. i nv reply her msg.. anyway, was thinking if i go 12/8, she might ask mi to stay till closing.. haiz.. sian.. think go afternoon bahs.. maybe tml before work can drag mum pei me go change HP.. haha.. =p

My sis just showed me the video clip uploaded by that laozhabor @ www.laozhabor.blogspot.com ... LMAO! Damn funny... GO n watch! XD

btw, my bro juz came back from Korea.. bought a cap for me.. nice! i like it! should be his gf choose de bahs.. ahaha!

hee

Heyhey.. i must blog today.. recently super lazy to blog.. i tried but when i come to this page i will just close it.. haha.. so today must blog! Although not really anyone sees it now.. ? hehe..

School has started and i got to know who's in my new class.. all dunno de.. haha.. except like.. Rash and Cong Xin.. the rest.. ya.. seen their faces and know some names.. afterall we are the same lec grp.. and the most handsome guy in LOM is in my class! lolx.. too bad not my proj team mate.. Lmao.. Rash got him and all the gd looking and capable guys - Yu da (Handsome), Jian Hong (Cute), Wai Yu (Smart)... wah.. so good.. lol... too bad her "gavin" in other group.. My grp members are Ronnie, Ivy and Cong Xin.. ok la.. at least got a ger pei me.. and is that kind of can talk one.. and the other sub members are Ivy, Wendy, Rash, Cong xin and me.. nt sure bout others.. but must be FAST to choose ur members or else grp with nt gd de ppl jiu die le.. cuz heard from Yani the 2 gers in our class very racies one..

So far lec and tut still ok.. I did my tutorials this week wor! Yay.. so guai.. haha.. bleahs.. =p Esp Miss Oh and Mr Teo's tut.. they check whether we got prepare or not to mark us on our class participation! But the bad thing is.. i tend to fall slp during lecs.. haiz.. esp Johnny de.. damn boring.. To me, that sub is suppose to be interesting becuz it involves calculations.. but he teach.. like.. wad leh.. make ppl slp.. as always.. today even Ms Oh's lec i also can slp.. die le.. realli tired..

Worked 6/10 after school today.. tired.. hai.. dunno wad to say la.. Everytime i 6pm take over cashier the transfer ins all not cleared leh.. very angry lor.. always wait for me to clear.. tt Yk..grrr.. today birdbird off.. so sian.. now most of the time work closing with Yk.. Maybe the following weeks can relax abit .. 2 more malay staff coming.. but Tues need go Bedok relief..mummy going HK.. so gd wor... Sat realli wish can go her ah ma hse with her laaa... always miss the opportunity... tis sat de svc cant miss cuz got the special seminar and tt workbook must take.. but she bringing Yendy.. haiz.. from last yr her ah ma bdae till tis yr i also cant make it.. sads ..

Met kel on tues for dinner.. Went bsn while waiting for him to reach.. As usual, chat with seng.. hao ba gua wor him.. haha.. ya hor.. forgot to check his makeups.. heard that he do makeup! more and more ai mei le this nan ren.. 8pm le.. that Leon came down from 841.. saw me and started to tease me again..=.= ROAR..den at the same time Yendy was scolding him for being late.. den i was like.. "Ya.. he always late de".. lols.. den he started saying me always hai him.. lols.. Went tamp de bsn yst with my gers also.. coincidentally Leo was reliving..and gave me that cheeky look.. =.= This 2 work hand in hand de! Lameness.. Btw, that Jorine is realli.. hmm.. kiddish? she brought the Aeroplane game ( Fei Ji Qi) to sch to play! I was super hungry after my lesson den knowing that they are opp sch.. went to meet them.. thinking tt i can shun bian go eat.. they were playing tt game half way while i met them.. they were simply obssessed in the game.. no matter how many times i tell them im super hungry, they gt no response and continue their game.. evil ma? until finally, Amy won and they pei me go eat KFC and they still continue their game.. =.= Jorine must be bu fu qi that i won her in Pri 6.. lolx..

Kk.. tml lesson at 9am! Apel class... sians.. Tan Kim Hock! BORING~