St James

I realise some say my font very small.. so i put big font k.. dunno will too big ma..

St James yesterday nite with AnQi, Wendy, HueyChing, Adeline, and 2 of AnQi's friend.. Karen and her bf Jackie.. actually and 2 of adeline's friend but they went Dragonfly while we stayed at Powerhse..

ok.. Work is heavy .. esp my department.. cuz vessel leaving on monday i think.. so they got to rush..Met my aunt and cousin for Lunch during lunch break.. Sakaed at Icon.. of cuz on Aunt..^^.. haha.. anyway couldnt realli enjoy cuz i got to be back on time ar 1.3Opm while we onli got our seats at 1.55pm.. so they continue to enjoy their food while i left in a hurry..So sick of keying BL every now and then.. Hate ppl who faxed drafts over.. haha.. esp when the fax machine is just beside me!!! -___-
Just waiting for the clock to strike 5.30pm everyday.. hahas.. so when the clock strikes 5.30 yesterday.. Boss came and ask whether i wan to go home.. den i said ya i wan to go home..=X haha.. den she wanna take over my seat and help them.. lol.. cuz anqi and wendy all ready.. (Import) more 'eng' than export.. den Adeline(Export) left at 7 plus lor.. so late.. while me, anqi, wendy at hueyching waited at Vivo.. Dined at Asian Kitchen.. Yummy! ^^..
That anqi still say everyone mus bu zui bu gui.. in the end onli herself drunk.. well.. first time there.. we enter like damn early..? 9 plus gg 10.. den we thot liKe.. oder 2 jugs first.. when the 2nd open and anqi friend come den order more.. but the bill come 2 jugs for $25.. cuz happy hour but ending in 1O min.. so we ordered 2 more.. so 4 jugs for $5O.. cheap rite.. we odered Vodka Ribena,orange,lime and sprite.. That Adeline.. -___- at first when we haven go.. she say she onli wanna drink 1 cup.. Diao.. somemore she is that type always go clubbing one.. in the end she drank 2 cups only den go merlion liao.. -___-.. somemore is not strong de lor.. and cannot stand anqi.. so funny la.. i play game with her .. liKe.. the 4 or 5 glasses of chivas greentea almost all she drink.. somemore is like loose one time she drink one mouth.. haha.. so funny.. she lost till scold bad words.. sae me and that jackie pagak.. but dun have lo.. haha.. ask me becareful when go back office.. lols.. Knew she wun go work today lar... In the end adeline and Hueyching left to go find her friend sing K.. left me and anqi and wendy's friend.. at first me feel abit gongong de.. but anqi keep losing so me like rested so ok le.. So she's not that that soft as i thought.. actually quite wild dancing and crazying.. lol.. with that Jackie.. think like some prob exists between the couple.. and anqi suppose to make Jackie stay longer or something.. so ask us help to make him drink.. den he high le keep wan us dance tgt.. but anqi still the worse.. dun dare dance with him.. he actually pulled me over but anqi ask me to get my hands off cuz karen will jealous..but.. hmm still dun understand.. but heard b4 their story abit.. its like normal cases like what happens when the ger keep giving in.. think they spent quite alot yst.. gonna ask them how much and pay them when mon comes.. although they say no need.. but ordered quite a few jugs.. plus one bottle chivas finished.. but think thats on jackie or karen.. helped anqi to washroom to merlion again b4 go back home..first time i see my eyes red and watery.. haha.. think they send her back.. i take taxi alone lor.. cuz they all stay hougang that area.. wa lau.. the taxi fare is 'Cor' de lorrrr... haha.. reach home i think.. i forgot le.. but it's near $30 larr.. its like more than wad i spent for going to club.. i onli spent $1O u noe.. haha.. I can go prawning for 2 and a half hour with that money la!!! lols..

:)

"once u are into love, it's hard to shake it off.."
I totally understand how Steve feels.. i know it's hard.. I know of cuz.. But what to do if it is one-sidEd? U've got no choice too rite? Am i not experiencing the same thing now? I realise it's no use already.. so in my heart, i just hope 'he' can stay happy..what's the use if u kept pestering?
It really hurts when i saw him this sat.. the feeling of.. fun-to-be with friends to "so stranger".. it realli hurt to the innermost part of my heart.. total different..but still got to learn to accept the way things are..
So.. i hope Steve can think the same way as me too.. he's really overdoing it..im starting to feel irritated but still cant tell him straight as it will really hurt him rite.. he's.. grr.. he returned me the cup i gave him.. tts fine.. he threw away the "i love u" bear outsidE my lift! that time the one at suntec arcadE..Crazy! As i was rushing for work, i couldnt realli care cuz i cant realli see whether is it tt bear as it was half inside a plastic bag until he told me in the noon... He sends msges every now and then just to find a chance to meet me.. As my msges are most of the time full, i take time to choose the msg to delete when there is no more space for new msges.. So, if i dun reply him in 2 min or so, he sends another (in impatient way)! He's crazy! I took half an hour find msges to delete juz for his 1O msges at one shot (520) stars to wish me gd nite... He waits for me every morning at my bus stop(7am) and sends me to train station which he shun bian go work (alights at pasir ris) when his work onli starts at 9am? He buys breakfast and hang it at my door some mornings.. I noe it takes effort.. but i realli find it disturbing and irritating.. argh..u may think he's perservere, he's romantic, he's nice, he's whatever.. but im realli sorry im not at all moved.. i dunno how long more is this going to go on..
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Well, Work today is fine.. although im not idle for a while, but at least i only had 1 B/L to do today.. which is quite easy.. i mean the details are quite clear.. i see if im able to show roughly how a BL looks liKe..

it goes..

Shipper:
xxxx xxxx xx Pte Ltd.,
ABC ROAD, 13,
#43-04
SINGAPORE 123456
TEL: +65 1234567 FAX: +65 6543210

Consignee:
PT. ALIBABA
Busan 32, KAV. SAD,
Korea

Notify Party:
SAME AS CONSIGNEE

Port of Loding: Port of Discharge:
SINGAPORE Busan, Korea

Marks & No. Description Weight Measurement
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N/M 1 X 20 footer 25664KGS 25.8cm3
container
clhu8233256/SYMU21015/ is S.T.C
20GP 48 drums of
Nitric Acid
"blabla"
14 days detention
and demurrage at
destination
"FREIGHT PREPAID"
------------------------------------------------------------------------------------ Thats something liKe that.. a lot of things to loOk out for.. likE.. if shipper got surrender or not or is there detention blabla...
So this morning all the way till break time got no draft.. so i was doing the receipts.. helping Cynthia and Leena do delaration, help An qi and wendy do all the invoices, fax to customers.. and the same thing goes on after lunch plus close Kestrial receipts.. Leena brought her Hari Raya cakes and biscuits for us.. so was super full.. We went her hse last Fri.. did i mentioned? Anyway, my point is that she's definitely a great cook! i was bloated after one round.. didnt manage to try all her cookies.. Anqi even vomited when she went home.. lmao.. Wendy was Zai.. she tried all the diff types of cakes and cookies.. Simon even Da Baoed the food i think!!! Haha..
Anyway, 10 stars for her food! **********
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Well, My sis is flying off for Osaka Japan in a few hours time.. how i wish i can join! Hope for a Kimono.. (tts dreaming!)
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Whoo!

Pronounce me Hui min and only Hui Min .. from today onwards..

Am i suppose to feel something? y am i not? That realli confirms one thing.. i wasnt even in love.. well.. I guess this pose will onli be up for a while cuz he gonna apply for internet soon and i guess he noes this add.. i dun wanna hurt him again.. or further..

He initiated it.. and i didnt object cuz.. he made me angry for the first time.. and dun mistake.. not onli over small thing but a big lie (at least to me it is a BIG lie) which i cant accept.. ever since exp with Ray, i hate (X infinity) guys who lie.. esp bf.. U may think that i have given up such a nice guy and wad happened was alrdy the past but it makes a diff to me.. plus i cant find my feelings for him after so long..(which i feel real bad) so.. both of us got fault.. i still treat him as friend but onli thing now is im still angry with him so dun feel like replying his nonsense and cant stand his neg thoughts always.. let him be.. at least he got his lappy now to pei him..

thinking abt the free lance Kai Huai has been introing.. well can earn good money but even though, im still not a lil motivated..

Not blogged for a long time..

I feel more and more lazy to come online nowadays .. and esp blogging..uploading pics and stuff.. i wanted to blog at times.. but ended up doing other things and its time for bed again.. so nv blog in the end..
Was damn tired today forcing myself to get out of cozy bed.. i was already dreaming about taKing MC and escaping from work in my dream..Woke up blur from yesterday's Chivas.. felt so lousy eh.. and the whole day i juz felt like slping.. but Boss is ard though supervisor is not.. i was doing declaration the whole day long cuz Cynthia got like 3 vessels to close today so i got to help her.. She's like the everyday busy women in our import dept.. I was so scarEd i keyed the wrong thing cuz money is involve.. It's tedious and eye straining esp when im slpy.. even sweets cant help much.. But the most argh part is.. i was so alive when i came back home.. thats y im here.. I was so reluctant to go to work this morning partly because i was damn tired i juz feel like getting more slp.. and the other thing is that i got to go over to the export dept starting today! but unknowingly im still stucked in my current seat.. haha.. cuz Boss nv say anithing when she sees me.. but i guess ill be going over tml lah... annoying! got to sit at Alison's desk i guess .. which means nobody to chit chat with.. SIANS!

I was thinking to get the Citibank CC or not.. and my ans is .. Yes .. Get it! Haha.. but nt yet taKe the app form..
My colleagues are thinking of going to Zouk instead becuz of the citiclear card got the Zouk promo 1 for 1..aiya.. they are so funny .. lols.. We were chatting chatting and realise that.. Adel can protect our drinks from getting spiKed from ppl.. Wendy is pro in wad to drink so she can rec.. and Anqi always send the drunk home so she can play tat role tt day! .. lmao.. haha.. and i shall be the one getting lookEd after liaos.. haha..den i was jokIng to adel.. the day b4 go buy clothes.. she replied ya im going.. i was liKe huh? u serious? buy clothes juz to go clubbing? hahaha.. diao..

O yah man.. gonna apply for the GV member card now b4 i forget! ciao!

Breaking down..

Im realli going crazy..i think i had mood swing yesterday after parted with my gers and met steve.. i was damn emo and sad.. knots in my heart which i didnt know at all how to untie..i dunno y im realli irritated and frustrated... i acted liKe a Ye Man Nu You.. demanding to taKe cab home, thinking that i have to wake up 5am in the morning.. i wanted to get hm asap so i can get more slp.. which also, there isnt much cab ard tt area (Suntec) and Taxi stands are everywhere.. with long queues.. i admit i was realli liKe a wilful 3 yr old ger yesterday nite.. but he wasnt angry at all.. and called and booked a cab in the end.. haiz.. wads worse? I was realli upset i felt so bitter.. i cried on his shoulder because of the other guy... i am realli bad and he's realli good.. how can i do this to him?
i can say he's one guy who's realli devoted and willing to do anything for my sake.. ive tried to feel for him.. veri hard.. but still, nothing.. He's an easily hurt guy.. im an easily hurt ger.. i dun wanna hurt him cuz i know how it will feel like.. but on the other hand, this day will come.. cuz he himself know that my heart is still with another guy... He knows wad i look for in him.. he knows he cant give me wad i wan.. but i dun demand of cuz.. juz feel tt.. no pt.. argh.. sometimes ppl will sae.. Ren Hao Jiu Hao.. but see .. now the prove is here.. ren hao no feeling also no use.. Ren Bu hao.. gt feeling.. anything u also wun mind.. y are things so wierd.. i cant slp yst for the whole nite AGAIN.. so pissed off.. and it goes 1am,2am,3,4,5.15... have i slelpt? -no. -___- Shag..
Dun feel liKe going to work.. heart still knotty.. almost broke dwn this morning again.. i realli feel like just taKe MC.. but on 2nd thoguht, better not .. working is not too bad.. at least it stops all the negative thoughts for a few hrs.. and fun colleages to be with.. Going clubbing on the 27th Oct with them.. let me get drunk..
i was still think of wad present to buy for him..2 more weeks.. i've bought something act.. but on 2nd thought liKe veri.. dots.. so i think im not giving anymore.. but i dunno wad else to give.. the things i thought of muz be chosen by himself which i think is impossible.. further more.. my finance.. haiz.. worried le.. but i will buy as long as i think he will like.. but.. if he throws it away, tts the other case.. i dun intend to meet him .. maybe juz .. u noe leave it there.. and ya.. my 2nd bdae wish this yr wun come true either.. only 2 simple wishes and both never come true.. ='(

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Dotdotdot.. Power failure for the whole of South Point Building this morning.. was declaring cargo half way and the com shut down.. lights off, aircon offed.. went for early lunch but Boss says MUZ come back accordingly in 1 hr.. dots.. haha.. she veri law by law one.. Went Amara to dine since we came out early so there shldnt be many ppl.. tried Thai fried Kway Tiao.. Yummy! but ex.. $4.50 per plate.. Today got said by Lena again.. she say "talktalktalk dun key wrong ah one container how much ah.. " wa lau eh.. soft talk only ma.. not like talk till veri excited tt kind .. somemore onli a short one lor.. die le.. she aim at me liao.. later give me poor grades i die.. haha.. aiya.. sometimes is.. realli got things to talk ma.. somemore i think we all quite gham and therefore always got things to talk.. but im more dangerous la.. cuz need to be graded.. haha.. sobx.. wonder if they realli went St James.. haha..

tml no work .. yea! but need go back to sch early.. cant slp late.. but still happy cuz i miss sch, miss my classmates and my teachers! No lie okay.. hehe.. ok.. time to slp.. can wear comfortably tml.. whahaha

arhwh

Slpy..-__-
I dreamt of Jeff yesterday nite..coming back to SG den come find me do crazy things again.. haha.. he made me woke up happy this morning cuz the dream seems so real and fun.. haha.. misses this crazily crazy guy but he's so far away...

hey im so sian... Work was getting more fun with the interaction with my colleages.. but got too talkative today.. supervisor sitting behind me ask me go find the Export side ask them got B/L for me to input or not.. and i was liKe.. huh.. i haven realli noe how to key in the details.. cuz yesterday adeline juz thought me once.. and a few weeks ago Mida juz briefly showed me.. and there's a lot of steps and procedures.. need to be realli careful lor..This line everything also talks about money.. do wrong one thing at least $1OO.. one container alrdy $75 liaoz.. sian..-__- okay.. den nvm.. i go ask the export department .. ask every single one.. although some i dun realli feel like asking cuz i dunno them den muz ask them teach very pai seh ma.. also dunno if ppl free or not.. but the lucky thing is no one got BL to do at the moment.. haha.. so i came back to my seat and daze.. at least not talk too much.. cuz Wendy and Anqi also ntht o do.. so we will chat ma.. My supervisor is saying dun talk as in.. not to be seen by Boss.. Boss veri scary de lehz.. superwoman.. loud voice, preasurising always.. yst and today whole day realli.. daydream lor.. i think tml fri will be busy le... after hari raya got to go over to learn export liao.. sobz..

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Twins bdae coming.. and Sylvia's and.. one more person.. forgot who le.. 7th Oct.. haha.. Celebration on Sun.. Yays~

19 Oct.. his bdae.. already cant do wad i wanna do le.. i mean possible but given the situation now.. hw.. alrdy dunno wad i can do le.. think so much in the end felt so useless .. do anything also no use le.. as in even if juz hope for appreciation also dunno he will appreciate ma.. maybe he will throw the present away? wad to do..

Only one friend seems to realli understand how i feel and support wadeva i do and this friend is realli u cant imagine is her.. and that is none other than Hong Jing.. thx alot.. =]

loving someone so much till u hate him but u still love him although u know he dun love u that much or even nomore. U dun wish to care abt how he is doing, how's his life cuz u wish u can forget abt him but it isnt realli an easy task.U've tried many ways but it all dont work and there is no change in him and u realise that u are so tired cuz u realise when time passes no matter how and wad u do things wun change. even to the extreme, u feel that he dun feel a thing and that confirms it all. Till that point of time where too much hurt is incured, although u still love him but u think that this 'thing' over here is so helpless..u realise u can do nothing but keep him in ur prayers.