It hurts

Sometimes i wonder why do i care so much when you are not interested.
We were talking finely, sweetly all about you.
I was just wondering and merely asking if u have anything to ask about me, just a very simple question..
like even though i said i'm going for an interview tml.
You don't even ask the simplest why and for what.
When i prompt if u have anything to ask about me, you only know to ask me what i want you to ask me with a 'wth'..
Isn't it the same as when i ask you for surprises and you asked me back what surprise do i want?

I know, i know u are having headache, but it is just a normal reaction to ask at least what job am i interviewing for when i said i'm going for an interview tml if you care.

DO YOU KNOW IT HURTS?! Esp u turn bad mood straight away and said 'wth' when i only meant a simple question like "Do you have anything to ask about me?" in a really very nice tone cuz i don't expect much actually but didn't expect a sudden change of mood from you as well esp the 'wth'.

I'm also confused when u said u were going shopping with your camp mates cuz when i asked you for a swim u can't because u got to study. I'm not saying that i mind cuz i know u might wish to have a nice catch up with them. But it just sets me thinking. I didn't qn u this cuz i am scared u might misunderstand. But you turned out on me by the slightest issue which didn't even meant to be one.

I tried not to get my feelings easily affected by you as i said previously i gave up, but it still hurts.. really really hurts and yes, i want you to know and know that i'm easily hurt by your little words or actions/ reactions cuz i really cared. I wish you really really can do smt abt it.. i'm being straight cuz i know i have to..

I dunno how else to handle if situations like this keep happening.
It is true that the 'Olive term' doesn't work in the long run.
I don't wish to live with that term.
I am really putting in effort, dunno if you realise, hope you do as well.

This entry is nutruel, not attacking but to improve.
I love you.